She's not me

All I need is you

Y/n's P.o.V

I miss him I'm at the place me and my dad came to, when he first visited me, I remember it, like it was yesterday, we sat watching the boats out at sea, we talked for hours... I remember when we got back to mine he made jokes about the short cut I made us take, which we soon realised wasn't so short after all god I wish I could go back in time to that moment again...

"I'm sorry dad, I'm sorry for not being there, for not trying more or just, I don't know what to do dad... I'm so lost in my own mind, that I have no clue as to what or how I'm feeling, my mind never stops... I can't stop thinking about you, everytime I try to sleep all I can hear is your voice, how you used to call me darlin' and remembering just how alive you were... Which is what I'm struggling with, I can't and haven't processed that you are actually gone... how can I? It had been ages since I last saw you and now I'm supposed to believe that you're gone? W-w-without-" you're ok "-without saying goodbye, and telling you that I love you... Because I do dad, I do, honest to god, I do, I just hope you know that, I really do... "

All of a sudden I start laughing to myself, whether it's nerves or I have just finally snapped either way, here I am "Look at me, freezing my ass off, on a bench, in a dark deserted beach, talking to you, or as others would see it, talking to myself, I mean if that doesn't scream crazy I don't know what does, like what else could go wrong, huh? Literally all we need is one of them crazy assed clowns showing up, now THAT would be the icing on the cake, which speaking of WHY THE HELL DON'T THEY JUST RUN THE BITCHES OVER or SOMETHING I mean they have cars... honestly everything has literally gone to, excuse the language, but SHIT, Oh and remember the girl I was telling you about awhile back? or girls rather, you know, the one that broke my heart? well she's back and the other one, my so called 'best friend' but the worst part is that, I still love her but I don't know if I can forgive and forget, they hurt me, yet I miss them and really I miss you, I need YOU, hell I need them, but I'm just at a loss, what do I do? TELL ME WHAT TO DO?!?!"

"You can stop shouting for a start"

We DEAD

"Ahhh... Holy mother Beyonce and Jay-Z" Holding my chest I look to see who spoke, as I look around, I see a man? it's to dark to tell "I HAVE A KNIFE AND SO HELP ME, I AM NOT AFRAID TO USE IT!!!" I shout at the stranger, truth is I don't have a knife, so I am probably going to die just had to say what else could go wrong didn't you...

"I'm not going to hurt you, I promise" he says, chuckling  yeah right!

"Says every nutter before they kill you" bitch what you doing?

He laughs "True. But I won't, at least not yet" he says laughing a little, why does he seem familiar oh yeah we're going to die then why don't you run because I can't, I don't know how...

"You should forgive them you know? You might not be able to forget, but as reality has showed, life's too short, you said it yourself you miss them, as I'm sure they do too, just like I'm sure that your dad knows you love him, just as much as he loves you, don't make what you believe to be the same mistakes twice, love when you can, for as long as you can, whether it's good or bad, because that's how you know it's real, now go, your family and friends are worried about you, she's worried about you, and don't worry about being lost we all are at some point, I know I have, just remember that with every dark night there's a new day waiting to come" he says, beginning to walk away

"WAIT! How did you know? that you weren't lost anymore, when did you know?" I ask, walking towards him

"When I became a dad..." he says, making it pretty clear that he was smiling wait...

Smiling through my tears, I shakily respond "Goodbye... Dad" I say, as he walks away

"Goodbye... darlin' " he says looking back, and before I knew it he was gone...

Taking my dad's advice I know what I need to do, go to her...