She's not me

She's not me(Part 1)

*2013*

This isn't happening. Is all I can really think of at this moment, as my heart slowly but surely breaks, as each word leaves the now once beautiful thing I loved kissing the most at every opportunity I could, of my now former lovers lips... Lover? You may ask, well I can't really call her my girlfriend, although I had hoped to have been able to soon, which I guess won't be happening now huh? you see you can't really call someone your girlfriend when you've never had the chance to ask them to be...

"So this it? You're finishing with me... Us? before we've even had the chance to really begin" I say, my voice slightly raised and trembling a little as I did

"I'm sorry y/n truly I am, but it's for the best, for both of us to do it now before it becomes something serious" Bullshit... "especially when I don't have feel-" she takes a breath "-Feelings for you, at least not the ones you want. It wouldn't be fair on you" well that hurt...

"It's her isn't it?" I ask now finding it in me to look at her once vibrant eyes, that for some reason now looks... Lost? Before I can say anything else she abruptly stands up and heads for the front door, but just as she's about to leave I hear in almost a whisper her say "I never wanted this. To hurt you" and with that said, she was gone...

(Btw A/N I imagine that Y/N's conscience is my friend Mya 'cause why not, and cause she's hilarious well in my opinion that is lol, which I think in doing so makes the story a better read, although obviously you can pretend it's whoever you want lol)

*2016- Present day*

Y/n P.o.V

Why do I always end up in these situations? Because unlike me, you need to be more aggressive, yet assertive of course Whatever. Like seriously? All I wanted to do, was spend my time off, staying at home and being lazy so the usual then? like I've been doing all so effortlessly these past couple of weeks told you BUT no! Ally being the annoying ass best friend that she is had to be all "Bitch move, we're going to be productive today whether you like it or not, and you can start by showering, because dude, you look ROUGH"

I ain't that bad oh but you are..."Why thank you Ally, what would I ever do without you?" not shower for one, also sarcasm definitely noted

"I say it with love now GO! And then when you're done you can head over to Shane's to help him set up for his video, like you promised" she says, as she shoves me towards my bathroom

Seriously? It's Shane frickin Dawson... since when did he give a crap about people's hygiene or being lazy? Anywhore WOW... yeah ok I've been spending WAY yes WAY too much time with Shane and Stevie, moving on...

WAIT!

What? You didn't introduce yourself. Oh crap you're right! Where are my manners? Let me introduce myself real quick, idiot... I'm y/n y/L/n. I'm 21, I love to sing, dance and just be crazy. I'm what you would call the "jokester" of the group annoying more like also, I'm like, hella but not so low-key SUPER GAY! So like hit me up yo' the hell was that? cause if that was s'pose to be flirting, then dude you need your head checked 'cause only person you talkin' to is YOU... Well sh*t, forgot about that, ummm anyway, that's what brings us to here, me sitting behind a camera watching shane about to film his collab' with the psychic twins...