She's not me

She's not me... (Part 1 & 2)

*A/n you can play the song above when you get to the song part if you'd like*

Y/n P.o.V

Right now I'm at the venue, sitting in my dressing room waiting for Mya to show up which better be soon because I am like so close to zayning the f*ck out o' here

"Y/NN!!!" I hear someone shout from the corridor along with loud foot steps multiple foot steps actually gaining closer? Better see who it is, getting up I walk towards the already open door to see who it could be, only to be knocked to the ground by someone a very small someone landing on top of me "ugh!" Well that hurt

"Oh my gosh, y/n I'm so sorry" Ally?

"I didn't know you were there until it was to late" she says, getting off of me and helping me up off the floor

"It's ok allz, don't worry about it" I say, chuckling a little and giving her a hug "besides it's good to see you again chipmunk"

"Ahem" I hear someone clearing there throat from somewhere to my right, turning around, I'm suddenly met with Them the rest of the fifth harmony girls she still looks amazing damn it!

"Girls... " I say awkwardly, making sure I don't look at them any longer, just the others instead, thankfully dinah is the first to break the tension

"Y/nn, what about us, aren't you gonna give us a hug too or what?" She says, giving me a knowing look that says 'you better go ahead and do something or so help me am gon' beat yo' ess'

"Yeah of course, obviously. Come here then" I say playfully, whilst internally cursing DJ, as I start to go around giving the rest of the girls a hug I am soon left with oh god those two

I make a quick 'please don't make me do this' glance at Dinah hoping she would understand and take pity on me

But boy was I wrong instead she 'accidently' tripped as she was walking past me yeah right resulting in her pushing me into one of them "whoops sorry" bish

"You ok there?" Lauren asks, with a little nervous chuckle, as she catches me, the nerves she's obviously trying (but failing) to hide, evident in her voice as well as her emerald greens. Define ok? 'cause right now I feel like I have just been pushed into the clutches of Hannibal lector which I'm honestly ok with not the point!

I don't say that of course, instead I reply with a simple "Yeah fine, thanks" as I give her and camila a quick and what could be a very awkward hug or is that just me? Before walking back to my sofa to sit down and prepare for what will be a long ass night a head this is gonna be a long night

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I'm gonna be sick, oh god I think I'm seriously gonna be sick the hell you are! We're going on soon no really I think I-

"Hey. Can we erm... Can we talk?" someone says interrupting my inner dilemma, I look up and see her...

"Um ye-" before I can finish my answer, I'm once again interrupted, by a stage hand dragging me away towards the stage CAN I NOT CATCH A BREAK?!?! as I look back I can see her looking at me with an unreadable expression on her face, I mouth a quick 'later' before going on stage

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Lovers? P.o.V

So far y/n's sang most of her set she hasn't changed a bit all that's left is the new song she wrote for her 'She's not me' which I know I'm not, and although I know the song is for her and most likely a dig at me but I can't help wishing it was? knowing that I'm not her sadly...