She's not me

Confession of a broken heart

Y/n's P.o.V

Is she ok? I don't know, she's been staring at me for about a minute "Laur'?" Before I know it, she has pulled me into a hug and starts sobbing fuck...

We stand there for a few seconds, just holding each other, just until she's calmed down a little, as soon as she does, I pick her up, and take her in

Closing the door behind me, I carry her over to the bed. Placing her at the foot of it, I crouch down so that I am now eye level "There! That's better now" I say, moving a strand of her hair behind her ear and looking into her tired and beautiful emeralds

"I'm sorry" she says quietly, her eyes still glossy from crying

"Lauren, it's fine ok?, so let's not tal-"

"Y/n please, let me explain, I need to, I have to get this off my chest, please?" she pleads, her eyes never leaving mine as she does, how can I say no to that...

Letting out a long sigh, so as to let her know that am not ok with it, I reluctantly agree like I was actually gonna say no to her on the condition of course, that she allows me to stop her at any point, well that and she mentioned she had ordered room service, so I told her we had to order more food first what? I was hungry and I didn't want her to eat alone so...

Besides a hungry Y/n, is an angry y/n, so in a way, I'm doing everyone a favour

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Lauren's P.o.V

After eating the extra food that y/n just had to have, we cleared up and decided that sitting out in the balcony, would be the best place for our conversation, that way we could look out at the city, which is where we are now, we used to do this all the time when we were back home, I miss those days

"Do you erm... Do you want to start or?" I hear her ask, from next to me, I can't help but smile at her nervousness, because she's never normally nervous with me...

Taking a deep breath, I prepare myself for what I'm about to confess here goes "I'm sorry Y/n... for what happened with camila and I, we never wanted to hurt you. But we had no choice, you have to believe me. Management made us do it, Camren was their idea, all of the looks, touches, our so called little moments that was them" Turning so that I am now facing her side profile, I take a hold of her hand, and continue...

"when management first caught a glimpse of the Camren trend, it was small, mediocre at best, but they thought they were on to something, so they had us create moments between us, to get the fans talking and guessing, then you came along... We thought that with you and camz being together they would stop. But if anything it made them more determined, they made us continue, we tried to get them to change their minds, but they wouldn't budge" as I explain, I feel Y/n start to stroke her thumb over the back of my hand, which keeps me calm

"And then if course, when yous broke up...  they said we had to step things up, and by step it up, I mean... Kiss, to show our fans we were together, without actually saying it, make it seem that it was me, or shall I say Camren that was the reason for you and camz breaking up, we didn't want to, but what choice did we have?" I say, as my voice threatens to break "And I know that it was fake, but the thought of coming in-between you and camila, it broke me knowing that you... my best friend, who I pretty much started seeing straight afterwards, hated me for something that wasn't real, except us I mean... I lied y/n, to me that was real, on my part anyway" I say, my voice finally breaking a little at the end

Now the next part... "Which can I just say, that I know what I did was wrong. And I truly am sorry, I know you and I willingly did what we did, but come on, I pretty much took advantage of being your best friend and your vulnerable situation, for my own selfish gain, and tried to be with you, when you weren't ready, hell when you were still heart broken over camz. Even when I knew you would never love me back like that. Not like her, I was just a rebound. And I get that, I really do" I'm not her... I finish, looking up to gauge her reaction, I'm surprised to see her Smiling?

"What's with the smile? Didn't you just hear what I said?"

"I did, I'm smiling bec-

"Hey Laur, sorry I'm late, had to save Dinah from Ally, cause that girl was 'bout to get her ess beat... Y/n?"Mani says, entering the room, only stopping when she sees Y/n...

What was she about to say?