She's not me

Confession of a broken heart(Part 2)

Y/n's P.o.V

"I have to tell her soon, she's kicking herself over us" I say to camila, see after Lauren and I's little chat last night, I went by Camilas room, which might I add, I walked in on something I never thought I'd see and that was Mya and Dinah-Jane... Knitting and crocheting whilst watching the discovery channel, d'fuq? still haven't recovered...

Anyway after that experience, camila and I had a heart to heart, and we decided that enough was enough, management had destroyed enough of our lives, we weren't going to let them destroy what was left, so we decided we were going to tell all, starting with Lauren, which I have been trying to do, once I figure out how to get her on her own, so I can finish off what I was going to tell her, before Mani walked in, but everytime I get a chance, something or someone always gets in the way...

"I know y/n, and we will, we just have to wait until the right moment" she says, placing a hand on my shoulder

"I know camz, it's just... It's killing me, I know how Lauren felt, well feels, about keeping that type of secret, we all do."

"Hey Y/n... Camz" I hear that all so familiar voice say from behind me

Shit did she hear us??? I don't think so...

"Hey Laur, we were just talking about you... and the girls of course" real smooth dummy

"Really, what about us?" She asks, take that as she didn't doing that cute little curious expression she does that I love

"Well I was wondering, well hoping, I could take you all out for dinner tonight? As a sort of apology for worrying yous" damn that was good what? it's true, I was going to... Just not right now

"Sounds good, I'm sure the girls will be all for it, I know I am" she says, smiling adorably bruh, you got it bad for once, I'm not gonna argue with you

"BUT... Before all that, y/n was hoping to talk to you, right y/nn?" Camila says, pushing me towards Lauren, who is now looking at us curiously seriously 'Mila?

"Right. Umm... Shall we, find some place more private?" I say gesturing for her to walk with me, which she does

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"So... what was it, you wanted to talk to me about" she asks, sitting across from me on the sand, we had decided the beach would be a perfect place to talk, seen as how the sun was setting, and not much people were around

"Right ok, well first off I want to apologise in advance, because what I'm going to tell you is... Is going to give you a whole new perspective on things and possibly end, in you hating us, you'll know who I mean soon, if you want me to continue that is?" I ask, looking into her beautiful emerald eyes, that reminds me of home who are we kidding? she is our home taking a few seconds to think, she finally nods and tells me to continue

"Ok well, me and camila, we erm... We were never really together, you see, like you, management brought us together, they said they wanted to take attention off of the whole Camren thing, which obviously little did I know, until you told me, was fake, I mean don't get me wrong, I never believed it was real in the first place, not back then at least, but I didn't realise just how NOT real it was. Lauren when I started dating camila, you and I became close, hell we became best friends, but Lauren that wasn't all" leaning forward I take her hands and hold them as I continue

"I... I fell for you Lauren, I fell hopelessly and completely in love with you, and I knew you felt, well I hoped, to some extent, the same as me and I hated not being with you, seeing you hurt and upset because of us, because of management, I hated it, but all I could think about was that, after what we had to do was finished, we could be together. And then when camila and I did break up, we did... Sort of, only thing we didn't do was make it official, which I was planning on asking you to be my girlfriend by the way, before you know our breakup of sorts happened, which I now know the reason for" I say, trying not break I quickly continue

"But back then I didn't, I honestly thought that you and her were together, I kept going over everything, kept asking myself, was the looks of hurt and jealousy, not because of camz, but of me, because I was with camila, and you weren't, and was I wrong about thinking that you felt the same, clearly I must have been and that's how it went on, the whole time we were apart... I wasn't hurt because camila was with you, Lauren. I was hurt because you were with camila and not... Me" I say, still looking at her, waiting for a response, and with what feels like forever, I soon get it

"Y/n, I... "