What is the Hardest word to say
Such a hard word to even think
Tell me. How many of you have seen
How many have had
Mother.
Father.
No just voices in my head.
Fill me with drugs. Make me numb.
Turn my body into a zombie on a lead. Because that's all I'll ever be. Because.
They call me many things.
Many names.
Too many titles.
But I'm sick. Twisted in my own brain. Bursting the seams of my reality.
What brought me here. What caused this disease.
Was it the continuous bullying of my features or was the hate at home. Was it how I was treated my whole adolescent life. Or was it me. did my own twisted fucked up brain do this.
I'm angry at... At..
I'm angry because I can't save myself. At least that's what I think... Or maybe I was told. Maybe Everyone who has tried to save me has told I AM A LOST CAUSE.
I've had many conversations with myself I'm split in two
Yes
No.
Yes.
No.
Yes
No
Over and over again.
You are important. Break free.
Break free? *cough* I'm fine.
You're not fine. You're sick. Please!
I've given up! Don't stop me.
No. I can't stop you but you can.
You're confusing me, just let me go!
Look at your future, you can't see it because you don't know.
I don't want to find out, can't you see my pain!
I see, I see the hurt and tears but you're string. You can make it through the hurt and lost put step away.
But I'm tired or trying...
I know, but you are strong. Whisper it to yourself at night when you think you are wrong
I don't feel strong....
Can you see now!
Can you see this.
The darkness is taking a hold of me.
THE DARKNESS IS TAKING A HOLD OF ME!
But I am letting it take me.
How else do I tell you what this word is... Its not that hard.
Let's play a guessing game.
Its usually mixed with....
What's the point.
Why should I try and preach to a crowd who will not listen To the words I am preaching
Why should I make my voice known.
No why should we make our voices known!
Because our stories are important despite what some say.
Our struggles are valid though others struggles are worst.
That's what people don't understand.
That is what people do not comprehend about this word.....
We never asked for it.... It was given to us on a silver plate and we.... Well we ate.
What is the hardest word to say?
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Midnight Thoughts
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