Dear My Sanity

Chapter 6.

When I woke up I was strapped to a firm bed.

"Miss us?" The voices ask me.

"Of course." I sarcastically reply. I try to break free from the grip straps that kept me from moving, instead a nurse walks in telling me that I needed to be still.

"Ms. Lucker, you have been admitted to this facility by the council of the town. You will be staying here at Red Heart Asylum for the mean time." She says smiling as if everything was okay.

If only I listened to my Mom, I would have been better.

"No it wouldn't." The voices say once again in perfect harmony.

Poor Mom having to go through this once again, with my Father and now me.

Mom always knows best.

"No she doesn't." A high pitch voice says.

"Yeah she does." I say aloud.

I look at the nurse noticing she really didn't care if I had voices in my head, it was like she was used to it.

I begin to wiggle violently wanting out of the straps that held me.

"Get the B52! B52!" She yells as another nurse comes running in.

She holds the syringe to my arm and stabs me, making me go into a deep, deep sleep.

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"I feel guilty, I feel sad, I feel depressed, I feel powerless, I feel like I lost to them, I just want them gone." I look up at Daisy as tears try to spill out of my eyes.

"It's not your fault. We'll get rid of them, and that is a promise. You're not alone in this.

I think you need some rest." She smiles at me as I begin to shake.

"Kill her." The voices whisper.

"No." I reply causing Daisy to look up.

"B52?" She asks me.

I nod my head, as I begin to laugh.

She waves her hand and nurses rush in ready to stab me with the drug that was contained in the syringe.

Before they could reach me I was on the other side of the table grabbing Daisy by her throat and holding her professional pen to her neck. I was ready to stab any second.

"Desi your stronger than this. Don't let them win. I promise I can help you. Just don't let them take over you." She says with a weak smile.

I held my hand tightly around her neck as she slowly started to loose breath. She began to turn red. Instead of squirming around like a normal person would have, she sat still as if she wanted me to kill her. I could see it in her eyes.

I don't know why but for some reason I snapped back into reality and let go of her. She gasped for air falling on to the ground.

My heart stung, why didn't she try to fight me off? Doesn't she know the voices drive me insane? Of course she does I mean she has a whole file that has my name on it.

I sat the pen back down on the desk.

I sat back in my chair as the nurse ran into the room.

I stared at daisy in anger. She could have let me kill her. She hadn't fought for her life and maybe that's why the voices spared her. Maybe she had voices of her own, I mean everyone does right ?

They ran over to me, holding me down and stabbed me once again with the syringe causing my arm to have a sharp pain. My eyes began to grow heavy, I could not keep my eyes opened for much longer. As I looked up at the ceiling I noticed a red painted smiley face staring back at me.

"I told you so." The voices say one last time before I drift off to sleep.