LOVING THE RAPIST CHILD

Chapter 23

Her hands were in her face and she looked like she was sobbing. 

She clutched the purse she was holding as if her life depended on it.

Edward wrapped his arms around her curl form. 

"I am sorry, baby, I am so sorry about all that" Ed tried to pull her towards him but she released herself from him. Standing up with a firm position. 

" I need to go home,  tell your mother I am sorry " she picked her purse and walked out going  towards the door.

Edward increased his pace and turned her body to face him, he was angry also. He wanted to see her face, he didn't like it when she tried to put up her defensive mode and try to shut him out, he was hurting also and he didn't want her to be alone, but shutting him wasn't going to solve the problem.

" I am going to drop you home " he dragged her to the car outside. He didn't bother to open the door for her,  she did it own her own sat inside the car,  did her seat belt and waited as the car roared to life.

The ride was the longest ride in all of her entire life, the traffic also didn't help matters,  she raised her eyes up and saw that he was already in front of her house she almost jumped out of the car, but Edward was faster than she was. She heard  the  sound of the  central lock of the car. She tried to open it, but it wasn't opening.

" open the car pls, Edward,  just let me go, I  sorry I was a disappointment to your mother"
" now, that I think about it I don't even know what even made me even think we could work out, I am sorry for misleading you"

Okay, what was she saying right now? this i s not going to happen, he will not wait all his life to find the right woman and leave her alone because his mother disapproved it.

" no we are not going to have this conversation Bri, we are going to keep this relationship going, because that is what relationships are about, we have a problem we face it together, not run away from it"

" I know my mother made you upset today and I am angry at her also, but don't even think that because of that we will throw it all away, I told you I am here with you and I am not going anywhere " Edward  was facing her now, he was getting worked up already but wasn't giving up, no,  never.

" you don't understand,  she will soon find out later, about everything, and when she does I won't have a choice than to end this because she will never accept me for who I am,  she won't even believe that I was raped to birth Jake,  she will think I am not not good enough for you, 
You need to stay away from me ,  I am going to taint your image, your reputation and all what you stand for. Your mother was right I am a whore!" She tried to open the door again hoping it was unlocked now but Edward wasn't finished with her yet.

Okay let's call a spade, a spade Edward thought to himself
" That is a lot of Crap! , that you are wallowing in, a lot of dirt that You are rubbing on yourself and you know it Bri, a lot of self pity, we are way passed that chapter Bri, and you know it, I understand  that you are scared and my family can be too much to take in,  but I am here Bri, I know you are afraid,  but guess what? So am I.  We need to face this together Bri, pls don't shut me out of your life now, because of this small incident,  I don't know what I can do to convince you,  I love you" Edward held her hands looking at her, hoping that she might trust him to stay with him come what may.

She removed her hands and cupped his chin with her two sweaty palms which was now cold due to the air conditioner in the car.

" I know you love me,  even more than I deserve  but I don't want to be the reason your mother will hate you or recent you,  you have a good family that I don't have and I don't want it broken because of me or Jake."  Edward was holing her palms now against his face.  She allowed the tear that has being holding to fall down.  That lone tear she likes to keep, she will feel a lot of pain and just allow a tear or few drops maybe, to fall and that was it. She was done crying.  As those tears fell on his wrist, he felt the pain also, as deeply as she did,  because they are one soul now, and her burden was also his.

" no, that wont happen, she will love you Bri, she just need time for us to prove her wrong. Lets go through this together, I want to do this for us " Ed leaned and kissed her on her lips, it lingered for a while before she responded also to the kiss. 
after removing his mouth from her own, he leaned his head on her own, face almost few inches away from each other.

" I want us to do this  together,  baby don't leave me out of this" He kissed her again slightly this time.

" I won't "

Edward unlocked the car, he allowed her to get down, he didn't even notice it was already dark. "Good night" he told her before she got down from the car.

" good night " she replied him with a little smile. 
He watched her as she walked to the entrance of her neighbours house to get her son,  he stayed outside and watched the empty pathway till he was here she was fully settled in,  then he zoomed off.

Edward last thought after saying his night prayers was I am a man, I have to start acting like one.