You don't know me (Lesbian Stories)

This is the part when I break free

CHAPTER 15

Ariana's P.O.V

I watched her leave and I sat down on the stairs, pulling my ponytail to the side and playing with my hair. My phone suddenly started to ring. Was Adeline calling me already? I looked at the caller ID.

  Scooter was calling me so I answered the phone. "Hey what's up?" Toulouse came trotting in and sat at my feet.  "We need to talk about your dating status. You haven't been seen with Ricky lately and people are noticing that you're spending a lot of time with that girl. You need to do something about this." I huffed and scratched behind his ear. "Yeah how about I come out? It'd be a whole lot easier for me and we wouldn't need to keep finding me new beards. Ricky doesn't even like me!"
 
"Ari listen-"
  "No you listen. I am sick and tired of hiding who I am. I want to be honest with my fans and open with them. I want to tell them the truth because they deserve to know. They're like family to me and lately they have been speculating that I'm hiding something and I want to come clean. Please. It's eating me alive."
"And what about the rest of the world that aren't your fans?" I stood up, careful not to step on Toulouse.
"Well they're going to have to deal with it." Then I hung up the phone.

I walked upstairs to my room and grabbed my laptop and sat on my bed. I texted Bri, Scott, my mom, Nonna and Frankie with what I'm about to do and shut it off before they can talk me out of it. I knew Frankie was still in the house but my door was closed and locked in case he came barging in and tried to stop me. I was going to do this.

I probably should have texted Adeline as well but she's busy with Cait right now and I don't want to be a distraction. I turned on my laptop and logged in.

I wasn't sure where to record this so I guess iMovie it is. I took a deep breath before I started to talk.

"Hi babes, Ari here and I have some really big news for you guys. Lately there have been rumours flying around that Ricky and I aren't dating anymore, that we broke up or that we're seeing different people but the truth is we were never truly dating. Sure yeah at the beginning we were all lovey dovey but that was all for my cover. I even tried to be cuddly with him at home but it didn't feel normal. At this point you're probably wondering why I'm saying that we were never really dating well it's because he was a beard for me. For my cover that I am gay. I am a lesbian, I like girls. I'm sort of seeing someone actually. I'm not naming names yet but yeah." I stopped to take a breath and to wipe my tears off of my cheeks. "This is a lot harder than I thought. I'm only crying because I feel so relieved and liberated that I can finally tell you. This has been such a big secret of mine ever since I was 12, but no one wanted my secret to be out in case it hurt my reputation but I don't care. I have been waiting to tell you guys for such a long time and I know I'm taking a huge risk but I know my true fans won't care who I love and will support me no matter what." I half smiled and rubbed my left arm, feeling vulnerable and a bit scared.

"Before I go I want to give some advice to people still in the closet maybe struggling with their sexual identity or gender even. Just be yourself. I know you've probably heard that a million times before but I stand by that. For years I've had people tell me to not feel the way I do towards girls, that it's wrong and not normal. But you know what? They're wrong. Love is love. Surround yourself with people that want to support you and aren't ashamed of who you truly are. It is so important to find security and comfort before coming out. I hope you all take this advice and really use it well. If you know a friend who's struggling with something like this, help them out. Make them feel valid. I'm glad to have finally told you guys about this. From now on I will no longer hide secrets. Thank you my honey babies." I blew a kiss to my laptops camera. "I love you all." I smiled and ended the recording.

I saved the video and went straight to youtube. I wasn't going to edit this. I wanted it to be raw and honest.

I clicked on saved videos, clicked on the it so I could give it a title and a proper thumbnail, named it "A new side of me", fixed the thumbnail and hit publish.

Now I wait.

//AN//
Ahhhh oh my gosh finally. This is probably the most heart felt and hardest chapter I ever had to write because I really wanted Aris part to be convincing and emotional. It is very hard to put yourself in her spot and imagine what she would say but I'm happy with it. I hope you enjoyed the chapter and sorry for the slow update they'll come but maybe twice a month if I'm lucky. Until next time! Xoxo Addy