Without you (currently being edited)

Chapter 49

Sunday morning:

Ellianna's POV-

      I was neatly tucked into Gage's chest and he had his arm around me playing with my hair.  I woke up first but didn't want to wake him so I just laid there and thought of our day yesterday.  It was perfect.  After we left the art gallery he took me to lunch at some diner known for their greasy burgers.  He told me I could use the extra calories.  I didn't argue with him about that. I was already pretty thin before I got sick.  I ordered a burger bigger than my head and couldn't even finish half.  We shared a large chocolate shake and I remember when we both leaned over to take a sip of it.  I know it sounds cheesy but when he looked into my eyes I would never be able to deny he loved me.  Even the waitress, that should have retired twenty years ago, noticed.  She told us about the love of her life and I was surprised Gage didn't get irritated  that she was interrupting us.  

     He just smiled at her and when she finished he looked at me and said "I can't wait to spend that many years with her."  He was saying it to her but looked at me.  I smiled again at the thought.  I always wanted to have a marriage like my mom and dad did.  I didn't have to worry about that with Gage.  He was everything I could have hoped for and needed in a man.  I smiled again and pressed my cheek to his chest.  I could tell he was still asleep by his breathing. 

     We got back here and talked on the couch over a bottle of wine.  I was confused he didn't try to attack me but I couldn't help love the way he was with me last night.  We took each other in and it wasn't in the bedroom.  Once we finished our wine we ended up taking a bubble bath.  I couldn't help but smile because when we got out Gage smelled like a girl.  He may have smelled like one but he certainly didn't look like one.  The memory of Gage naked made me blush.  He didn't make love to me or fuck me last night.  We did however explore each others bodies and I was very satisfied after we were done. 

     I didn't have a chance to call anyone because I was so wrapped up in spending time with Gage.  That's when I felt him move.  I didn't and just laid there.  He started playing with my hair and I wondered if he knew I was awake.  I didn't know what time it was and I didn't care.  I wanted to spend the rest of our time together laying in bed.  He had been playing with my hair for about ten minutes when he finally said "I love you Ellianna."   I closed my eyes because hearing him say it in that voice made me what to cry.  I slowly looked up at him.  He looked so sad.  I gave him a small smile and said "I love you too."

      I wanted to say "I know" to lighten his mood but I couldn't when he looked like that.  I put my head back down and snuggled even more into his chest.  He wrapped his arm around me pulling me in tighter and kissed my head.  If we didn't have such an amazing day yesterday, and he wouldn't have looked at me like he did, I would have thought in that moment he was having second thoughts about this.  I knew he wasn't.  He felt the same way I did.  I didn't want him to go and he didn't want to leave.. 

     I don't know what came over me but in that moment all I needed was for him to make love to me.  Show me how much he loved me.  He worshiped every inch of my body last night and I enjoyed every minute but I needed that connection with him.  I rolled on top of him not lifting my face from his neck and whispered "please make love to me."  I felt his hands go down my back, over my hips, then he gently lifted me up and entered me slowly.  I was still sore but in a good way.   He whispered in my ear "I'm going to make love to you all day." 

      I lifted my self up and looked down at him.  He caressed my face with his hands and looked into my eyes.  I slowly lifted off of him and back down.  God I'm going to miss him. He just looked at me and I continued to repeat the motion.  I finally couldn't take it and leaned down and kissed him.  He licked my bottom lip and I opened my mouth and his tongue slipped in my mouth.  One of his hands slid down my back and the other went to my breast.  I could feel tears filling my eyes and I tried to keep them at bay.  I didn't want to make this harder.