Death of Roses(book two)(lesbian stories)

chapter 5

Throughout my life I've been told, "Scar your body count has increased by 10 everyday. You're even more ruthless than your father. You will make a great leader for this gang." Everyday! Every single day I heard those words and every single day I lived up to the expectations of those people. But what about if I didn't want to be ruthless anymore. What if all I want in life is a family, love....

Knowing that the love of my life left this world with no return, shatters me each day. My heart tightens as I think about it. My mind, my heart, my soul yearns for Sydney. To think everything we went through. The lies, betrayal, heart ache and all the trials and tribulations, yet I still loved her. Loved our child. I will still love them. I could never stop.

Karma it's absolutely a bitch. The moment I did love, they two things that meant the world to me, it was simply ripped out of my arms. No return. But it's my fault. If only! Those words kept echoing throughout my mind. If only I rushed her to the hospital in time. If only I payed the doctor enough to save her in time. If only the bullet pierced my brain and not hers. If only. If only. These thoughts replayed in my mind like an old record. I couldn't get it out. I tried so hard. Yet it couldn't. 

And to think that they thought I was ruthless then, we shall see about that from the moment I see the person who destroyed my warehouse.  For the past week, I planned and I displayed a series of steps for my guys to take in finding this person.  I shall let no one over step their boundaries when it comes to Scar Kenneth.

"Scar!"

I looked up at the voice of the caller and sighed loudly as I saw her walked in and sat.

"Yes jinx! Talk to me!" I laid back into my chair and allowed the tips of my fingers to touch each other.

"Remember the time we went to bora bora?" She began.

My eyebrows creased together at the memory. We were still best friends back then and we decided we needed a vacation. She suggested bora bora. Though when we arrived there we spent 5 hours of calm moments and then 2 days of shootouts and drug dealer plans. We had no idea how they knew we were there but they did. So therefore our enemies followed us and we had to plan quickly.

I stared at her and shook my head in remembrance.

"Good! Remember Francis? The man who followed us initially and then gathered a team?" She gestured by waving her hands.

"Yes I do. But what are you getting at?"

"Listen! Francis has there big drug trades going on. One of them were savaged by the cops. Now, he plans on destroying and simultaneously taking over a warehouse in New York  so that his cartel can grow larger than ever. Guess what warehouse was that?" Jinx stared at me in anticipation while my memory twisted and turned at the new revelation.

"Francis huh!"

"Yes. Not only that but I heard Kelly started back working with the FBI and she is not giving up till you're caught."

"Caught? Caught? The only catch she ever got was finding me about to eat her girlfriend's vagina sideways. Other than that she caught nothing." I smirked at the memory.

I laughed lightly and turned to Jinx to see her staring at me with her mouth slightly ajar. "What?" I queried.

"I cant believe you just said that." She laughed. "Are you sure your name is Scar?" She intercepted.

I shook my head with a small smile. "My new name is Betty!"

"Seriously? Betty? Why not Sharon or Sandra?" She shook her head.

"Why not? Your mother named you Jinx, didn't she?" I laughed while walking out of my office.

"You bitch. You know my real name." She scolded, "and dont you dare say it!"