Till I Hear You Sing(Final Book)

A small update on stuff.

Hello all. I was going to update today. I wanted to, but I've come to a conclusion. I'm not happy. It sucks to say that, but it's true. Writing, for me, has always been an escape, but lately it isn't an escape. It's more of the thing I want to avoid.

I have been writing out my feelings about some things lately, and I wanted that to make me feel better. Turns out it only makes it worse. Seeing all these sad ideas floating around in my head written down in front of me, well, I'll be honest. It makes me cry.

I am okay. I would never harm myself, or do anything like that. I'm just not at a point where I feel happy. I want to be happy, and I want that sadness to go away, but it isn't. And it probably won't for a little while.

   Yes, this is just depression and a thing I deal with. No, this isn't about some sob story heart break. That's not my life, and no guy (yes, I'm straight, surprise) is going to stop me from writing. Broadway and writing always makes me happy. But right now it isn't.

So once I can bring myself to write I'll have those chapters coming out quickly. But right now I need to take a step back and remember how to take care of myself alone. How to rely on myself.

  So I'm sorry, but I have to do this in order for me NOT to cry all the time (: cause I'm a baby.

I love you all very very much. Be kind. Be yourselves.

-Bella.