The Lost Butterfly

TLB 5

I clenched my fist when we arrived in our destination. I feel nervous, afraid, scared and at the same time anger. I can't explain ny feelings today, so complicated.

I hurriedly went inside in a known Hospital here in Paris. Shit Grace what are you doing here?.

"What room?" Ate Apple asked V.

"319" He answered.

We hurriedly went there.

Naguguluhan na talaga ako, sana hindi tama ang iniisip ko ngayon sakanya. Hinding-hindi ko talaga matatanggap yun.

Nasa harap na namin ngayon ang sinasabing room number ni V.

Nanginginig ako sa takot habang hinay-hinay kong binuksan ang pinto but I was shocked nang bigla tong bumukas.

A familiar face opened the door. A shock plastered in her face.

"Angel?" I said, its Grace's younger sister and the one who send a letter to us.

"What are you doing here?" She asked.

"What's the meaning of this Kuya V?" She asked to V na nakayuko.

"I'm sorry" Tanging sagot ni V.

"May I see Grace today?" Ate Apple asked nang maramdaman niya ang kakaibang atmosphere.

Angel heaved a sigh na parang nagdadalawa kung papasukin ba kami o hindi but in the end she gave up.

"Ok just be careful" she said then we went inside.

Palakas ng palakas ang kaba sa dibdib ko nang makapasok na kaming tuluyan.

May nararamdaman na naman akong isang mainit na likido sa pisngi ko and here I am again...crying for what I've saw.

A precious girl in my life, a girl whom I treasured the most, a girl who makes me happy and a girl I loved the most...

Sleeping like a princess in a hospital bed with an apparatus in her body.

"A-anong na-nangyari?" Basag kong sabi.

Hindi ako makagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko. Para akong naparalyzed. I can't breath. I can't take this anymore.

"She's now dying...I admire her a lot for being stronger" wika ni Angel.

"She's now fighting for her stage 4 cancer" wika ni Angel na nangingiyak na. Nilapitan naman agad siya nina Jin at Namjoon to give comfort.

"I'm sorry kung saka ko lang naibigay ang letter sa inyo. I hesitate to give it to you or not. Its my Ate's request na huwag ko muna daw ibigay ang letter hanggat hindi pa siya patay but I can't" she's now already crying.

"Alam ko na gusto niya kayong makita sa kanyang huling paghinga lalong lalo na't ikaw kuya Jungkook, alam mo ba? Mahal na mahal ka niya" she smiled but its very visible the saddness in her eyes.

"Ang saya-saya talaga niya nung nakapagcelebrate kayo ng 1st Friendsarry dahil hindi niya aakalain na buhay pa siya nun" she laughed but again may lungkot parin sa kanyang mukha.

"Sabi pa nga raw niya sakin na ready na daw niyang harapin si kamatayan dahil nakasama at nakilala na niya kayo"

"Alam ko rin na nasasaktan siya nung may mahal ka ng iba Kuya Jungkook pero tiniis niya na lamang ang sakit dahil wala naman daw siyang karapatan magselos kasi magkaibigan lamang kayo. Masaya na daw siya dahil masaya kana sa piling ng iba"

"Hindi man niya natupad na maging kayo, natupad naman niya ang maging masaya ka kahit hindi siya ang dahilan"

I clenched my fist after for what I've heard. I heaved a sigh. Gusto kong magsalita but parang may kung ano sa lalamunan ko upang hindi makapagsalita.