The Bad Boys Mission

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Five days. It's been five days since I kissed Max.

Little did I know after kissing him, he'd just disappear.
I haven't seen him in five days and I can feel myself going crazy. And angry.
He kissed me and leaves. He doesn't text or call or anything. I thought when I finally got him out of my hair, I'd feel happy even free. But instead I just feel lonely and even sad.

"Why do you care?"

I was startled and completely forgot I was talking to Maria.

"What?"

"Why do you care he's gone"

She was challenging me say I liked him but I wouldn't admit it.

"I don't"

I do. The whole conversation I was looking at my jacket that was draped over my chair. The jacket that I belongs to the dumb idiot who left me confused. Did I even mean anything to him? Of course not. He just wanted to play the game and I gave him the mission. 

"Then let it go. I have to go. I'll see you later."

I sigh and tossed my phone aside. I hadn't told Maria about the kiss, which wasn't easy. The memory was on replay in my mind.

I didn't do anything all day. I kept thinking about my stupid mistake. I feel for his dumb tricks and now he's done with me. I'm so stupid. I'm a mindless bimbo. Not only did he play me. He broke my heart.

I tossed and turned all night. The feeling of loneliness eating at me. I felt pathetic for thinking he cared. I felt even with more pathetic because I kept asking myself the same question over and over again. No matter how many times I told myself he doesn't matter. He meant nothing. But yet the question always crept up after each and every one of my lies.

Why would he just leave me?