I kidnapped my groom.

Chapter four.

Xearis POV.

"Miss, room for one please." Ani ko sa babae. Nasa hotel ako, since dito ako nagpahatid kay ano, (ano nga ba ulit name nun? Hindi ko natanong eh.) Because I don't want to talk to anyone at the moment. Gusto ko mapag isa. I want to runaway in all of these hatred, burdens, and complicated life.

"Okay, ma'am. Here's your key. Just call if you need anything. Thank you." She said politely. As I walk towards the elevator. I remember yung lalaki kanina, that guy who annoys me big time but he made me feel better awhile ago. I wonder if we ever meet again?

Nang makapasok ako sa kwarto, hiniga ko na agad ang katawan ko sa malambot na kama. Then close my eyes. I don't want to over thinking, pero di ko maiwasan. I see the day that I was supposed to be happy, I was supposed to be the most beautiful girl on that day because its my wedding day. I can still recall, how exited I am, and nervous at the same time. Nasa hotel pa lang, I can't control my tears. Sobrang saya ko that I want to cry. Nung nasa church na kami, I expected him sa altar. Waiting for me, but wala siya. Sabi nila late lang daw. We tried calling him, pero nakapatay phone niya. 4 hours kami nag hintay, pero walang Alfred na dumating. And ito ang pinakatatakutan ko, ang humarap sa maraming tao at sasabihin na wala nang magaganap na kasalan.

"Thank you sa lahat ng dumalo. Pero wala na pong magaganap na kasalan."  I said calmly. Hinahawakan ako ni Cassy, trying to make me feel okay. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, I'm not going to cry. Alfred's mom, Tita Luz is already crying and saying sorry to Mommy. Everyone is so devastated, I can see through their eyes that they pity me. Hah! And di ko na napigilan sarili ko, especially when Tito Fredy hug me. He's Alfred's dad. He is saying sorry for what happened. After that, I just saw myself breaking down. Nagwawala na ko. Sinisira ko mga decoration. I'm asking them where is Alfred, pero walang sumasagot. I was shouting, and shouting. I want to run.. because that's the least thing I can do. I don't know how will I deal with this without Alfred. He is my life, my love.. I can't imagine myself without him. My life revolves around him. We planned everything. We planned to live together until we die. And have cute kids. Pero wala na yun lahat. Cause he left. He left without an explanation. He left me with all of his bullshit promises. He left me in the altar, kung saan dapat mageexchange kami ng vows and be the happiest couple alive. He runaway, and leave all the responsibilities to me. He runaway with my heart. Cassy and Josh is trying to calm me. But I shrugged their hands. Cassy hug me at the back and keep on saying.. "Everything will be alright." "We are here for you." "Please, Xearis. Stop it." I'm tired, yes damn tired. All I want to do is kill myself. And be gone forever. I saw something sa gilid ng simbahan. I don't know, mukhang nakikisama ang tadhana. Tumayo ako, pinunasan ko ang luha ko. Nagkalat na ang iliner at mascara ko. Then I removed Cassy's hands sa pagkakahug sakin. Then walk towards that thing. That thing, that will help me to get rid of all of these. Kinuha ko yung gunting and aakmang isasak sa sarili ko. Pero pinipigilan nila ako. "Ano baaa, ayoko na." Inaagaw nila. Ayoko na mabuhay pa, ayoko na maramdaman yung sakit. Ayokong mabuhay nang wala siya. Nang biglang sumigaw si Polack, pinsan ni Alfred.

"Alfred is gone. Pupunta siya ng England. Kanina pa yung flight niya. 2 hours ago."  Sabi niya while crying. So, alam niya pala. Di niya man lang sinabi. Bullshit. I run to her, sinabutan ko siya. I'm mad. Beyond mad. Niloko nila akong lahat, pinagkaisahan. I feel so exhausted. Hindi ko alam what happened next.. cause everything went black.

I found myself sobbing, I should really stop this. Tumayo ako, I feel tired but I have to call Cassy for sure nag aalala na yun sakin. Kinuha ko yung phone sa gilid and dial Cassy's number.

"Hello?" I said. Nung may nag answer

"Where are you? I'm worried. I tried na habulin ka pero di ko alam san ka na nag punta." Sa tono niya, halatang sobrang nag aalala siya.

"At the hotel dito sa makati. Please pick me up at twelve. Okay? Okay lang ako." I said.

"Ohhh. Okay. Mag ingat ka ha? I got your purse. I love you." She said relieved.

"Cassy." I whisper her name. I'm so thankful of Cassy. Since then siya yung andiyan for me. Such a good bestfriend, and sister of course.

"Yes?" She ask.

"Thank you." I heared her smile.

"Baliw ka talaga. Osige na, I will fetch you tomorrow. Text me the details. Okay? Goodnight. Tulog na. Ako na bahala kay Mommy." I bid my goodbye and binaba ko na yung phone. Nagbuntong hininga ako and remove my jeans. At humiga na, ilang sandali pa nakatulog na din ako after praying that tomorrow everything will be alright.