I thought I was stronger
I thought we would be okay
I thought it was all better
That today was a brighter day
But no, I'm still the weak one
I've disappointed you again
I'll never be good enough
Not like I was back then
I'm a ruined, broken person
And sometimes I get mad
Sometimes I mess up
And I always get so sad
It's so much harder for me to smile
When I see you push me away
Cause I'm not what you wanted
I'll never quite be that way
My logic makes no sense to you
But my intentions are mostly good
Even if sometimes I don't do things
The way I probably should
Maybe I should just let you leave
I can see that's what you want to do
But I can't seem let you go
Even if I don't deserve you
You used to insist that I did
But now you just sadly smile
When I say bad things about myself
You must believe that I'm so vile
It's my fault that you don't trust me
So now I have to build it up again
But you're cautious and withdrawn now
Not like you were back then
Do I ever make you happy?
Do you need me? Do you care?
I used to think you did
But now I never dare
It feels like you're scared of me now
And for those crimes I wish to atone
I want to fix things between us
But I can't do this all alone
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Poems
PoetryA collection of poems I wrote. Mostly not about happy stuff. They usually rhyme. First one doesn't.