Broken

Intentions

I'll hate myself forever
For that mistake I can't erase.
I'm blaming you again this time,
You never sheltered me from pain.
The only thing I ever took away from all the lessons you taught with no intention,
Was how to fuck up your entire life to become the face of all resentment.
Years of pitiful cries for help
As if you were some kind of victim,
Led you to believe that you had a reason for your indifference.
It didn't take me long to see
that my life would lead to a lot of regret.
You taught me at an early age that anything goes if you keep it a secret.
You made me believe that love was just another word.
So I never knew how much that it was really going to hurt.
I live with this regret everyday and my heart will never feel the same.
One mistake was all it took to realize you were actually to blame.
You were born without a heart to keep you from feeling any emotion.
You clung to your beliefs that no one else could feel devotion.
I told myself I'd never end up like you,
I'd do anything to make that true.
I tried so hard to hold on to the idea that your disguise couldn't last forever.
But in the end you still find a way to manipulate me, come whatever.
I keep letting you back in,
Expecting your lies to come to an end.
You have a way of controlling me even though you'll always be the same.
I have a heart inside of my chest,
so I still save you from your own mistakes.
Even though the voices continue to tell me you're still insane.
This time I'm going to listen to them,
You're heartless intentions will no longer captivate me with your pain.