Broken

Crazy

I made an attempt once to be a normal human of society.
But then I realized I was crazy
and normal was just a fassad to me.
They said if I put my emotions into words it might help with my insomnia at night.
I never sleep 'cos I hate to waste time.
I've got too many thoughts that need to be brought to life.
I never needed to be fixed.
I needed to be saved.
Somehow it never clicked,
That it might actually be too late.
Holding on to memories that I wish I could suppress.
Drowning in fears of my past loneliness.
My mind is like a broken rollercoaster.
Spirals of emotions that can't be controlled until they decide its over.
I used to think I could do everything.
Until I realized that I was capable of anything.
I'm addicted to addiction.
I just need to be high.
I've made it my mission to become numb to life.
Girls like me don't get the fairy tale at the end.
Girls like me have lived through too many tragedies to keep thoughts like that in our head.
I was happy once; when my heart was whole.
But you can't come back from a shattered heart and a stolen soul.
I made an attempt once to be a normal human of society.
But then I realized I was crazy
and normal was just a fassad to me.
Now I'm everything I never wanted to be.
My blood runs a different shade through my veins inside of me.
Some people are just born crazy...