DeCiPhEr.the story of a Pinetree and a Triangle

memories and sicknesses.

After eating dipper throws a pile of clothing at me and points to the bathroom.
"Your showering first" he instructs. I look at the yellow dress shirt and black jeans smiling.
"Only if you wait for me by the door" I joke. Dipper smirks and walks to the bathroom sitting on the toilet seat he raises an eyebrow
"There I'll sit hear you shower, or would you rather me stand in there with you"  he says with a mischievous grin. I feel my cheeks burn up and shake my head.
"N-no, that's ok you can stay there" I stutter. My stomach flutters and I look at the ground. Dipper laughs. "My eyes are closed bill I swear" he says. I unbutton the yellow vest and black dress shirt I had been wearing. Now topless I sit on dippers lap. He looks at me and giggles.
"Yes mister cipher?" He asks cheeks slightly pink. I grin.
"I don't remember how to turn it on" I say pointing at the shower. Dipper roles his eyes and picks me up. Sitting me on the counter he draws back the shower curtain and points at the tap.
"Turn this hear to make it hot and hear to make it cold" he says. I nod and jump of the counter. Getting it the tub I turn the cold one pulling dipper in with me.
"like that" I laugh. As the cold water rains down over us. He squeals and nods.
"Y-yip" he says turning it off. "Like that" I laugh.
"Your face was priceless" I grin. He roles his eyes and stands up.
"Yeah yeah ok well hurry and have a proper warm shower be for you get sick" he says quickly pecking my lips before he leaves to Change out of his wet cloathing. I Finnish off in the shower and wrap the fluffy yellow towel dipper bought me around my shoulders. A little shiver goes down my spine and I slump to the ground.  Holding one hand against my head I groan. Closing my eyes I drift out of consciences.
I sit in a large room a bed on one side and dresser on the other. It seemed rather empty with only these two objects of furniture. I sit on the bed. It had a simple yellow blanket drapped over it. Someone was talking to me but I didn't fully hear what they were saying. As though I was listening but not processing the words. They place a Hand on my forhead an I finally comprehend what they are saying
"Bill honey your burning up a fever, I should have never let you go out last night you wouldn't have gotten sick if you had stayed home" the person says. Only after hearing that did I feel my temperature drop. I felt as cold as snow yet beads of sweat role down my back and neck. I look up into my mother's blue eyes and let out a small cough.
"It's not like you knew I would get sick then ma, none I us did we were just muckin' around by the tracks an I feel in" I mutter. She hugs me an sighs.
"I know honey it was just an innocent accident but still you know as well as I do your immune system is not as strong as it should be, you get sick so easily Bill and I'm scared one day it's going to be more then just a common fever" she says. I pat her back.
"I won't let that happen ma, I won't leave you and pa alone, not after all you've been through" I say glancin out the door to a room opposing this one the door of it slightly open showing a light blue bed. Pa walks by shutting it his Hand lingers on the handle just a fraction longer then it should have. I know they both miss him. I do to hi I have to be strong for them. I have to be brave.

I'm woken by someone forcibly shaking my shoulders. My yellow eyes flicker open an I look up into his light doe Brown one's. The light above his head outlining in like a halo. I smile softly.
"You look like an angle" I smile my cheeks feel sunk in and sweat beads up on my skin. I already know without havin to be told that I have a fever. It's most likely a coincidence that I would get one after reminiscing about a time when I had one. I suddenly let my face drop an I look down at the now completely soaked towel around me.
"Dipper, I think I had a brother?" I say. Questioning my own voice as I state this fact. I close my eyes draw in the cold wet fabric tighter around my thin frame.
"Lets get you dressed an into bed, your burning up" dipper says eyes full of worry yet relief
"Then you can tell me all about it ok" he smiles softly. I nod and let him guild me out to the bedroom. Mabel rushes through the door suggesting dipper called her to tell her we wouldn't be coming.
"Is he ok!?"she asks worry drawn on her face. I look up my movement's sluggish I blink an nod
"Hey Mabel" I slur a small smile playing at my lips. Dipper sits me down.
"Mabel turn around he needs to get dressed" dipper instructs. She nods and faces the wall. I giggle
"Ma can we have muffins for breakfast" I ask dipper stares at me and blinks.
"Hes gone bonkers!" He says throwing his hands in the air. He picks up the yellow button up dress shirt and guides my arms in I yawn an look at the back of mabels head. I pout
" pa why is ma ignoring me? Did I do something wrong? It wasn't my fault. H-he slipped I didn't mean to" I whimper my eyes tearing up. Dipper glances between me and Mabel.
"It's ok Bill, you didn't do anything wrong" he says I feel the warmth of my tear burn against my cheeks as the flow down my face my vision blurry from the sobs "no pa it's not ok will is dead because of me! I let him die because I was to selfish" I cry holding my head In my hands. I sob see in the scene play put begin my closed eyes. The blue eyes full of fear his blue grey hair floating around him as bubbles left his wide open mouth. It looked like he was screaming but no sound came. He was wavin his arms around as though trying to fly. I stare in horror from the bank of the crystal clear pond. I watch him sink further into the depths of the water. He was only twelve. And he couldn't swim. The weight of his winter coat not help in the cause. I watch my younger brother die because I was afraid that jumping in to save him would cause an asthma attack. I watched my brother die. because I was afraid to.