Chances Are Few

CAF: Chapter 3

Here's an update. I'm really sorry if I keep you waited.

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Its been 2 days since my encounter with Donny, and I still can't forget everything I heard about what he says to his girlfriend.

Haaaaaaaaay.

I carelessly grab my phone na nakapatong sa lamesa, muntik pang malaglag. Grabe epekto mo sa akin Donny. Ikaw lang. Ikaw lang talaga nakakapagpaganto sa akin.

I stalk his twitter and instagram account. Most of his tweets ang ka tweet niya is si Melissa. i think that's her girlfriend base na din sa picture niya, siya yung nakita kong kasama ni Donny sa picture with a caption mg heart heart heart.

You're really harsh on yourself my dear Violet. If Donny doesn't want you then why are you still pushing yourself to him? Is it some kind of desperate action? My subconscious telling me

I don't know what to do. Yung kaisa-isang bagay na nakakapag pasaya sa akin is yung pag tingin ko sa pictures niya and at the same time ito din yung bagay nakakapag bigay ng sakit sa aking kalooban. So deep.

Ang cute niya sa mga picture niya at also ang pogi niya. Ito yung Donny na sobrang kilala at nagustuhan ko. Pag numingiti pati mata kasama, halatang masaya siya.

I grabe Donato nasa tabi ko lang nagulat ako nung nakita kong may tastas yung sa arm niya baka maputol yung kamay niya. Dibale papatahi ko nalang.

"Naaalala ka pa kaya ni Donny?" I asked Donato as if na sasagutin nito yung tanong ko.

"I wonder what will be his reaction if he sees you? Take note inalagaan kitang mabuti hah! Sabihin mo yan sa daddy mo pag nagkita na kayo."

"As if that teddy bear will answer all your what ifs and what abouts." Nagulat ako ng biglang may boses na sumingit and it was my mom.

I just gave her a weak smile.

Lumapit siya sa akin and hinimas niya yung likod ko, and it made me feel safe. Really Mother's knows best.

"I just want to tell him how sorry I am for breaking our promise. But I guess it will never happen." Tuloy tuloy lang yung paghimas niya sa akin sa likod.

"At my age anak, one thing I've learned is that. People should not dwell in the past because like what it should be "its all in the past now" nakaraan na yon. Nangyari na, walang mangyayari kung magkukulong ka jan. Look at you, you're 17. 3 months nalang 18 ka na."

Oo nga pala, nakalimutan ko na yun. Mas naging excited kasi ako sa pag-uwi ko sa Pilipinas eh, thinking na magiging maayos ko yung naging gusto sa amin ni Donny. Pero hindi pala.

"C'mon anak, let's go down stairs I prepared your favorite." Nung narinig ko yung bigla akong napangiti. Like what I've said. Mothers knows best.

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"Kuya, are you and ate mel together?" Nasamid ako bigla sa when my sister Hannah ask me that question. And with that. All of them stares at me like "You better tell the truth or your over" that kind of look.

"Why are you asking that kind of question Hannah? Of course Mel and I are not together, we're best of friends." I answer defensively.

"Eh ano tong nalaman kay Violet na may kausap ka daw na babae, nung nasa mall tayo and you said I love you to her. Mel ang narinig na pangalan ni Violet" what? Violet told that to Ella? Ughhh! What Am I thinking. Ella and Violet are the closest among. Ang tanga ko, di ako nag iisip dun ah.