A couple of weeks passed and I was kinda out over the collage, Because I'm going to six form, I sometimes have my moments though!
We only had 1 week and a half off until we have to go back to school!
I found out that Jack was going to college nearby Bristol and I was upset about that but I was going to leave him so I can't really say anything!
When I woke up after my day and a half sleep, I felt so refreshed.
I stayed in my pyjamas and had a lazy day in, I watched TV had loads of films on, eating loads of chocolate and popcorn, drinking lots of pop, it was like a dream, a wonderful dream!
But I treid to wake my mom up first so we can snuggle up on the sofa.
"Mum, mum, wake up!" I said
"No...go away" my said as she turned over
"Fine" I said
So I went downstairs turned the TV on, and get a few snacks and started my dream day!
I was just about to put some Maltesers in my mouth then my mum came down crying!
"Your...your" she said with tears in her eyes
"My what..?" I asked getting worried
My mum just cried she didn't have the strength to speak!
"Your...g..g..g......grandma has died"
"No! no! it can't be how, why! NO!" I screamed while loads of tears rolling down my face!
My grandad and now my grandma!
I ran up to my room, slammed the door after me and started to get dressed.
my mom slowly opened the door.
"where are you going?" she asked with mascara smudges down her face.
I didnt reply.
"if you don't tell me where you are going, your nit going anywhere." she said with her arms folded
"oh yes I am" I said while pushing her away from the door
"you dare go out that door, misses" she shouted from the top if the stairs
I went anyway!
"bye!" I shouted while I slammed the door shut
I was goimg to grandmas house, I niw its going to be upsetting for me but I want to help my family, and I woukd like to get grandma all tidy and nice, well thats if my mom doesn't come out and start hunting me!
It was about 3 miles away from my house so I decided to get my bike.
I was thinking about her and it made me get upset even more.
How the hell am I going to stay strong for my family if im getting upset now with out even looking at her.
I carried on anyway.
When I finally got there, I took a deep breath in and walk inti the house.
I loved the smell of my grandmas house, but this time it didn't seem to smell the same. I walked into the living room and my auntie Cass the only one that moved to england was sitting on the sofa with her head in her arms, crying.
After my grandad died, that was my mom's, my mom's mom moved to
I go over and hug her, she looks up at me.
"Ally, what are you doing here?" she asked
"I have came because there is no one else with you, I mean family!" I said trying to keep strong
"Ally I'm fine, you have to go!" said my auntie Cass
"no, I'm staying!" I said while stood up
"well..." shd said
I walked into the kitchen and I fell to my knee's.
NO, I thought to my self, I have to keep going!
I simply cannot accept what has happened, but I new sometime I have to.
so I went in had a little chat witn her and then I kissed her on the and said, good bye, hope you have a nice life in heavn and tell him hi for me please.
The nurses took her out on the bed and into the ambulance, my auntie Cass went with her.
"I'm goimg to go with your grandma, will you be alright to go back home on your own?" she asked
"yes ill be fine! When you leave grandma....ca..can you give her a ...kk.k..kiss for for me please" I replied crying
"yes of corse darling, come here!" she said putting her arms around me
So when they left I did as well.
I got home and I tiptoed up stairs and got my pyjamas as I opened the door my mom was standing there.
I ignored her and walked away.
"Ally where have you been?" she asked
"I went on my bike, to grandmas house!" I shouted
"you went to grandmas, why?" my mom asked
"becuase you wouldn't go, auntie Cass was on her own and I wanted to be with her!" I said
"oh, how was she?" she said
"Auntie Cass was really upset, and grandma was quiet and she looked peaceful." I said with tears in my eyes
"Oh okay, do you think I should go and see her?"
"No" I said quickly
1. she left to go to the hospital.
and
2. it will be to upsetting, when I saw her i cried and then I fell to my knees" I said
"thank you, Ally, I'm so proud of you! I love you!" my mom said trying to smile
"Thanks mom, love you 2!" I replied
So we went down stairs and waited for some news, about the funeral, but it took a couple of days for auntie Cass to organise it.
