Sad Adidas(Larry AU)*complete*

Final chapter (18)

"4 minutes" The back stage crew called out from across the room. Models scurried around back stage getting the finishing touches of their outfits and makeup done. This was the moment that thousands had been waiting for. Everyone was filled with anxiety. The stuffy room got even stuffier as people ran to each end getting in position.

Harry stood in the front of room watching as people buzzed through making sure not to ruin everything. He did a quick check of everything and soon called everyone in for a pep talk.

"You guys will do great, you've all trained for months on end and I'm so grateful to have you all by my side. Now lets kick this thing in the butt and get started!" Cheer's erupted back stage, the noise from the audience concealed the cheers.

"30 seconds" Called out one of the crew members. People soon started to line up one behind the other in a perfect straight line just as rehearsed. Harry stood in the front of all of them as the guy who's been yelling out numbers gave the signal. He walked out lavishly in his half way unbuttoned shirt and $500 golden boots.

"Welcome ladies, gentlemen, and my non-binary viewers watching. I would like to introduce to everyone the creations that I have been working on for years. With the help of these amazing models I would like to introduce to you Le Style Show of fashion. Claps circled the room as Harry sneaked his way back behind the curtains. He didn't like the attention, maybe that's why be opted for a more behind the scene job. He knew that wasn't the only reason, he loved doing this, seeing peoples face light up at the sight of his creations.

He smiled thinking of all of the people who were out there. He knew extremely famous people were in the crowd, The Kardashians, Beyonce, Katy Perry, along with many other people he had looked up to. He felt a twig in his heart as he remembered Louis wasn't here with him. Louis would have loved to have these amazing people watching him, maybe he would feel a little anxious but he knew he secretly loved it. He would none stop talk about celebrity life. At first Harry didn't understand why but soon he got the sensation that the reason behind it was because it help him cope with the fact that his own life wasn't the best.

That was conformed a few months ago. They were both fused together as Louis rambled about how Kim fashion was 'too die for' and how those knee high jean heels 'slayed his entire existence'. Harry was never into those sort of fashion trends. He like to stick with a good throw back vibe mixed with a dash on the 20's. Harry wasn't paying much attention to the exact words but he knew what was being said. He said it almost everyday.

"Why do you focus so much on these celebrities." Harry asked on impulse. He didn't mean it to come off as rude he was just curious. He remembered the way Louis twisted in his spot to face him. The way that he blushed and mumbled the answer hoping he wouldn't hear.

"Sometimes I imagine I have their life you know? I pretend that I'm Happy and confident and I can do anything I put my mind too."

That was the end of that conversation. Louis soon fell asleep but Harry couldn't quite get those words out of his head. He wished that he could just swap places with Louis. Louis didn't deserve anything that happened to him.

Harry felt an uneasy feeling in his stomach, this always happened when his mind drifted off to Louis. He walked over to his backpack taking a big swig of his water hoping to cool him down. He took a seat on the floor feeling a sudden wave of nauseousness. He grabbed a hold off the basket near him waiting for him to spill his guts out. It never happened, he only dry heaved for a solid 10 minutes while the show was going on. This had been happening a lot lately but usually after a few minute and a bottle of water he was feeling all better.

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"Thank you everyone who came and everyone watching at home." He spoke loudly into the microphone. Harry smiled while he waited for the claps to die down. 

"Befour I go I would like to say 1 more thing. I want to dedicate this show to someone special. A few months ago I met this amazing guy. He couldn't be here with us but I want his memory to live on."

Tears pricked the corner of Harry's eyes. Behind him a big screen was playing with a montage of his favorite moments with Louis. The silhouette picture they took in Disney world in front of the fireworks. The picture Harry took of Louis snuggled up in his onesie facing the fire place. A few more pictures played. Along with the pictures, Harry had chosen one of his and Louis favorite song, I will always love you by Whitney Houston. At the end of the montage one last picture of Louis appeared. It was the picture of Louis drenched in rain but still smiling the biggest Harry had ever seen. It was from the night after their first 'real' date.

They had reservation at a fancy Italian restaurant. Louis had ended up getting some sort of bug and by the time he got better they had missed they reservation. Neither of them really cared where they ate as long as they were in each others company. Although it was pouring outside they took off to McDonald's. They got wet, Harry fell in a puddle, Louis almost got ran over but once they were tucked in each other arms later that night they both agreed that it was the most fun they had ever had. In delicate cursive letters the words R.I.P Louis Tomlinson 1991-2016 appeared on the picture.

Tears were falling freely down Harrys cheek but he kept his voice and stance strong. "I know this may have put a damper on the whole show but I needed to do this, if not for myself than for him. Thank you everyone for coming and good night."

Confetti blasted through the cannons as Harry took one last look around taking it all in and vanished behind the curtains. The models crowded around him. No one knew how to handle this situation, they didn't know if comforting him or congratulating him was the right thing to do in a moment like this.

"I know I made this a sad moment but I would like to say a quick congratulations to everyone. You all did amazing, now get ready for the last walk ladies, don't forget to smile and have fun with this one."

Everyone cheered once again and all the models lined up to go out. This wasn't what usually happened but Harry knew he was going to end it on a sad note and decided having a little dancing would bring up the mood. He walked over to the bathroom. He closed the door letting out a loud sigh. He walked over the the sink opening the tab and splashing cold water onto his face. He dried his hands and reached into his pocket searching for the paper.

Befour Louis death he had found a letter he had written. Harry had read it over so many times he had already memorized it.

Dear Harry,

I wasn't sure how I should write or say this but I'm just going to go for it. When I met you I was the broken shell of who I used to be. I was going through some hard times which I have already told you about. This isn't easy for me to write and I hope you know that. I know I was acting very sketchy and distant the whole day but this is why. As you know I'm terrible at putting my thoughts down on paper or even vocalizing them but I'm really trying. I didn't do this to hurt you or Charlotte and I hope you both know that. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I hope you can find it in your heart to love again. I hope you can find it in your heart to be happy, if not for yourself than for me. I'm also sorry if I ruined the show in anyway, I definitely didn't mean to do that. I hope you hold onto who ever you find after me, hold on and never let go. I'm crying now if you wanted to know. I don't want to say goodbye and I'd like to think this isn't one either, maybe more of a see you later? I heard in heaven time flies so trust me, I'll be waiting for you. I don't want this to be all sad though. I want you to remember that you gave me the best gift of all, the realization that even when you don't love yourself you can still love other with so much passion that sometimes it enough and for that I thank you.

Love, Louis

1550/// Holy Shit guys that's it. its 9:15 pm and I'm tearing up. If I'm honestly I'm very proud of this book, its the first book I've ever completed and ITS CRAZY how happy I am. Something I find funny is that I absolutely HATE when writers end their stories with a death but here I am killing off Louis. I was thinking about writing 2 different ending then seeing how it goes but in the end I decided just let what happens happen. Also cheeky promo I will be writting another book, not sure which will be first. I have an idea for a phanfic, luke hemming x guy fic, and another girl x girl fic. Maybe I wont start with the girlxgirl one because its meant to be sad and.....well this was kinda sad.