All the Notes I'll Never Leave

I will not leave.

I am terrified of you, for you.
Of the possibility that lurks inside you,
Of the diagnosis that will come to define you.

I tremble to think that we could lose you,
To a condition that yet still could abuse you.
You know nothing more of this than me,
And I feel the fear when you smile beside me.

No matter what you will not live alone,
We will remain beside you and smile while machines drone.
You always will have a home.

You are beautiful and loved,
And no matter how many doctor's visits we may have to dread,
I will sit beside you,
No matter the tremble in your smile
Nor the hair upon your head.

I think of you now and pledge to thee,
That I will stay beside you until you no longer want me,
And yet I will think of you still,
And send to you hope and tortured good will.

So no matter what happens next,
Know that I remain.
Lean upon me if you can not stand,
And cry without shame.