All the Notes I'll Never Leave

I lost

I lost the game,
And if it is to you all the same,
I will not respawn.
I have no interest in your hopeful future,
Your "bravery",
Your new dawn.

Every awakening brings new hopes to suffer,
And every hope disappointment's pain.
And no,
I have no interest in restarting,
For I have lost the game.

Do not try to play with my settings-
Your system patches like pills.
All of these updates and notifications,
Like medications,
Make me ill.

The illness,
The glitches,
Have overrun me.
By accident I pass through walls.
From my mind's map I have fallen.
I exist in this system or in nothing at all.

You argue to load an old save,
But the data has become too corrupt.

I have abandoned my conviction,
Day in, day out, tis all the same.
I have lost the game.