FONDNESS ; HATRED

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noun fondness

-- affection or liking for someone or something.

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"It's my last day today. So, please give this letter to Hanbin." Rosé says to me. I nod and take the letter that she handed to me. "When is your flight?" I ask. "The day after tomorrow." She replies. "Kim Mingyu. I'm so sorry. I didn't help you a lot about your problem. I hope that Dahyun will know how you feel right now and the truth will revealed." She says. I smile. "It's fine. You help me enough already." I say. She then silent and just looking into my eyes. "I'm sorry." She mutters. "For what?" I ask. "For liking you. I don't know why but, you have sooth my heart. I think I kind of like you." She said. I feel guilty to her. "I'm sorry that I can't." I reply. She smiles. "It's okay. Please look after Hanbin and cherish Dahyun always. I'm sorry for burden you." She says. I nod in reply. "May I, have your warm hug? One warm friendship hug?" She says in a sudden. But, I'm not hesitate to hug her. She hugs me back. Then, I can feel she cries. She giggles and sobs. I softly rub her back. Trying to sooth her. "I've done a lot of sin towards them all. And towards you." She says in sobs. "No, it will be okay. As the time passes, they will forget it too." I say. "I trust you." She says. We parted from each other and she wipes her tears. "Kim Mingyu kamsahabnida!" She says and I nod. "I do nothing you know." I say. She shakes her head. "Bye! See you again." She says and leave my house.

I don't know why but, I feel empty. As she left, I felt empty. Dahyun leaves me, she leaves me, it's like, why they left me? Even if I know the answers are, I pretend not to know. I take a walk at the outside. At the park where Dahyun and I had a bicycle race. I sit at the bench. Thinking about what I'm going to do. I think that, I will got the first place to break Yoonhyung's hope. Then, Dahyun.... what do I do about her? Anyway, I will take everything that's mine. Everything! Then, I see Yoonhyung and....Jennie! I don't know what they are discussing about. Maybe, saying a goodbye. Because Jennie also moving with Rosé. But then, Yoonhyung leaves Jennie. He looks angry, sad and full of hate. "Please! Song Yoonhyung." Jennie shouts. But Yoonhyung just leaves. Then, Jennie also leaves. Maybe, Yoonhyung doesn't want Jennie to move. That why he is angry and sad. A message come as my phone buzz.

Unknown number : So, you asked Jennie to help. Coward ! Cant you do it by yourself?  Why you need to ask Jennie to talk to me?!

I guess I know from who it is. No one other than Song Yoonhyung. I stand up and go back to my house. The next day, I go to school. But, it feel like full with sorrow. I sit on my place. Suddenly, Dahyun sit next to me. This is really shocking me. But, I stay silent. I don't know what to do. I feel stupid right now. "Tell me about that girl!" She speaks. I immediately look at her. "Jeon Somi?" I ask. She look at me with her furious eyes. "Okay, what do you want to know?" I ask. "How's your relationship with her at your former school?'' She asks. "We're, nothing. She likes me but I don't. I really don't like her. Do you remember the girl who I scolded during the time we met at the park?" Dahyun nods. "It is her." I say. Dahyun has no reaction. I sigh. "Isn't she already had boyfriend? Why did she hang out with you?" She asks. So cold in her voice. "We're not hanging out! When? All these time I was with you." I say. She nods and says, "she's prettier than me." She says and standing up. I grab her hand. She looks at me. "Thank you for talking with me." I say. She pulls her hand and going back to her seat place. I sigh heavily. I see Yoonhyung looking at me. Next week is the exam. I'm going to knock you down.

The school has ended, and I almost forgot to give the letter to Hanbin. I call him. He looks at me. We're at the corridor. "Rosé give you this." I say as I handed the letter. He takes it and open it. He looks at me after reading the letter. "She came to you?" He asks.  I nod. He crumples the letter. "When is her flight?" He asks again. "Tomorrow." I reply. "Why did you just give me this now?" He says. I look down. He let the letter fall to the floor before he walks away. I pick it up and look in it. "What did she said to Hanbin?" I say to myself.