Secrets In The Dark

Breathe

Your heart thumps in your chest wildly as you approach the doors of the conference room. Your chest contracts with every breath. You suddenly find it a struggle to breathe properly. You can only imagine how things are going to go once you're in the room with Sandra and Niall.

Sandra will be calm and cordial like she usually is and then she'll throw it on you. You'll have to pay back every cent that they've given you and you'll practically be banned from everything One Direction and Niall. You'll never be able to think about them or talk about them or see them. You'll have to completely forget about them. The fear of having to forget about them shoots through you.

You don't want to have to forget about them. As hard as things have been, you've kind of secretly enjoyed everything. Plus, you're close to Niall now. Getting close to Niall was no easy task. On top of that, you may very well be in love with him. That's another fear of yours.

You're not sure that you want to be in love with Niall. Niall is a complicated person. More complicated than you ever imagined. You're not sure that love is something that you need right now. You've thrown your photography career on the backburner and have pretty much left your family and friends behind. Because of all of the recent excitement, you've kind of forgotten who you are and where you've come from.

Maybe instead of being in love with Niall, you need to concentrate on yourself and focus on where you want to go with your life. As hard as it is to swallow, you're not going to be Nialls' hired girlfriend forever. One day Sandra and the rest of management will get tired of "Niall and Kelly" and will throw the whole idea away. What will you do then?

"Here you go miss..." Paul says, swinging the conference room doors open.

"Thanks..." You whisper, nervous about the next few minutes.

"Kelly!" Sandra chirps, standing up from a small circular table.

"Sandra..." You whisper, slowly walking over to the table.

"I'm glad you could join us. Niall and I have been talking..." Sandra says, smiling widely.

The smile of destruction.

"Oh?" You ask, looking over to Niall.

Niall looks as nervous as you do, you're sure. His face is dull and he's definitely not smiling. In fact, his lips are in a tight line. His chest rises and falls slowly. He's probably trying to contain his breathing, just as you are.

"So, where should we start?" Sandra asks, sitting back down in her chair.

Niall shrugs.

"Well, let's start with your contract..." Sandra says, sliding a white piece of paper across the table towards you.

Uh-oh.

"Yes?" You ask quietly, looking up at her.

"I thought that I had made it clear that I didn't want any relationship started from this..." She explains, clasping her hands together.

"Oh..." You whisper, your heart racing deep in your chest.

"Listen Kelly, I really like you..." She begins.

Here it goes. This is the beginning of the end. It's just as you had pictured it. Sandra was of course kind and cordial and now she's going to lay it on you. Within minutes you'll be packing all of your belongings and heading back to your apartment with Audrey. That is if Audrey would still let you live there with her.

Sandra rambles on as your mind races as fast as your  heart. What if Audrey wouldn't let you live with her? Where would you live? You wouldn't have anymore money and you don't know anyone else in Los Angeles. You're sure that your parents would probably send you money to get back home but you're not sure that you want to go back home to Missouri.

You actually like Los Angeles. You've grown comfortable with it and you would definitely consider it your home now. Besides, what would your parents think if you came back home? They would probably be so disappointed. You had told them that you were going to Los Angeles to become someone. So far, you were still a no one. Well, aside from Nialls' fake girlfriend but that was all about to change.

"And that's why I think that you and Niall should stay together..." Sandra says, finishing her rambling.

Wait. What did she just say?

"Wait. What?" You ask, your mind trying to gather thoughts.

"I think that you and Niall should stay together..." Sandra smiles, nodding her head.

"I'm sorry, what?" Niall asks, his eyes wide.

"You heard me..." Sandra laughs, nodding again.

"You actually want us to stay together?" You ask, pointing over to Niall.

"Yes. You two make a cute couple." Sandra smiles.

This cannot be happening right now. This is all too good to be true. You can continue seeing Niall? You don't have to worry about maybe loving him and having to forget about him? What a relief.

"Seriously?" You laugh, leaning back in your chair.

"Seriously..." She smiles.

"Wow..." You laugh, shaking your head.

"Of course if you're going to start a relationship then-" Sandra begins before Niall cuts her off.

"Wait, a relationship?" Niall asks, raising an eyebrow.

"Yeah, if you two are going to begin a relationship there still needs to be guidelines..." Sandra says, nodding at Niall.

"No, but we're not going to have a relationship. What we had was just sex..." Niall murmurs, shaking his head.

Ouch. Those words shoot through your heart, releasing an immediate heat through your body. Your heart goes from racing to barely beating in a matter of seconds. You can't believe those words just came out of his mouth. Right when you thought that everything was going perfect. Things were too good to be true.

"Oh, I was under the impression that you two wanted to be together?" Sandra asks, looking at you.

You can't find any words to say. You're still in a bitter shock.

"Oh, no. We just had a little fun..." Niall says, nodding his head lightly.

"Oh, okay. Well, if you two are going to continue having fun then Kelly here needs to be on birth control..." Sandra says, smiling over at you.

You just breathe in and out. You feel sick. Your mind is still processing the words that came out of Niall's mouth. You thought that it was more than just "sex." At least you know how he feels now.

"Kelly?" Sandra asks, waving her hand in front of your face.

"Yes?" You murmur, focusing my vision on her.

"Is that okay? If you get on birth control so you and Niall can continue whatever it is you're doing?" She asks, shrugging her shoulders.

"No..." You murmur, shaking your head.

"No?" She asks, raising an eyebrow.

"Yeah, you don't have to worry about that. It definitely won't be happening again..." You say, glaring at Niall.

Niall looks at you with a confused look upon his face. He has no idea what the hell is happening but he'll definitely find out soon enough. In fact, you can't wait to be alone with him so that you can tear into him. The bitch side of you is about to make a special appearance.

"Okay, well if you change your mind let me know..." Sandra smiles, getting up from the table.

"Okay. Thanks." You murmur, continuing to sit in your chair.

"Alright. I'll leave you two to talk then..." She smiles, going to walk out of the room.

You watch as she slowly makes her way across the room. You can't wait for the door to shut behind her. You can't wait for it to only be you and Niall in the room. You can't wait to give Niall a piece of your mind since clearly he had given you a piece of his. You couldn't wait to tell him that in a matter of seconds you went from loving him to hating him. You can't wait to be a bitch again.

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