I did it

I Did It-Chapter 9

I've never blushed so hard in my life. I sat there and kept staring at his text. I couldn't believe he called me cute. Hehe, he's probably texting the wrong person.

"Hey dude." I replied back.

It seemed like an eternity before he answered back. I kind of understand though, he has a job at the mall in one of the best stores and that place is always packed. There's always a line when I walk in and the line never seems to go down. Oh well. I guess I have to wait until he gets off or until he gets his break. My phone vibrated.

"I miss you already baby." He answered.

"Um, okay? Lol. I don't see why." I replied.

"You're so cute. Your style makes you look like a total badass and that's amazing. I love me a badass girl ;)"

"Lol you're just stupid."

"Yeah, stupidly in love with you!"

"Stop, lol. I'm not that great."

"Oh bull. Hey, I'll text you back later okay? I usually get off around 4:30 so I'll message you then, k?"

"Yeah, its understandable. Bye."

"<3"

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I get out of my shower and throw on my hoodie. I feel no need to  cut or try to OD, so I'll just live another day on this damned planet. Besides, I don't want the Hot Topic guy worrying about me. I'm sure he has enough to worry about now. I'm sure he doesn't need my depression on his shoulders too.

I look at my clock and it's only 4:15. Ugh. 15 more minutes. I lay on my side and mess around on YouTube. YouTube seems to be my only escape from  reality.  Despite my razors and my pills  I use to try to end everything, YouTube is my true escape from everything. YouTube has everything I like. From favorite bands to the top 10 worst dates, it has everything a depressed girl could ask for. It's just, amazing.

My phone vibrates and it's from the cute Hot Topic guy. I smile and read the message.

"I'm finally home. Sorry for the wait. Whatcha up to?"

"It's okay. I'm just laying in bed watching YouTube, you?"

He answered back almost instantly.

"Same but I'm not watching anything, just talking to the cutest girl in the world right now."

"Wow, she must be really pretty and lucky to be talking to you."

I was totally oblivious to the fact that he was talking about me. I sat there forever thinking 'who else are you talking to' but I shouldn't care. He's not mine so why should I claim him as mine?

"Yeah. It's you, btw :p I got a few questions, if you don't mind me asking. Feel free to ask too"

"Yeah, go ahead."

"Okay so, whats your name and age?"

"I'm Jai and I recently just turned 16. You?"

"Nice. Lol. My name's Joshua, or just Josh. I'm 19."

"Oh wow. Hehe."

"What? Too old?"

"No, just no one's ever been so into me before."

"Really?? How??"

"I don't wanna get into that right now, sorry."

"It's okay, I understand. But will you tell me in person?"

"Um, I don't know. Depends."

"On what?"

"If I completely trust you or not. :P"

"Oh lol. I gotta go. I've got some plans for tonight. You wanna tag along?"

"Nah. Maybe another time okay?"

"Okay. Ttyt I guess. :P <3"

I put my phone down and blushed. There's no way in hell he's actually into me. No freaking way. He's gotta be taking some hardcore drugs because there's no way that he likes me that much. He only bought me those shirts and plugs because he was just being nice. He only put that heart emoji on that text message because he wasn't going to talk to me until tomorrow. Maybe he's just a fuck boy, trying to get into my pants, like my mom's ex boyfriend...

I fall asleep watching YouTube and with Josh on my mind...