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Chapter 5

Prussia POV~
I carry Y/N to my house because I have no idea where they live, they don't live with Spain anymore. So the only option I can think is possible is to go to my house, it's pretty close so it's not a far walk. As I walk back to my house I caught myself thinking about them..were we that bad to them I feel really bad we pushed them so much to the point of killing themself. I feel awful and sad, I don't know what to do they must hate me. Shit..the Awsomeness I used to fell is gone. I set them on my bed and go down stairs to make some food for me and them.

Y/N POV
I wake up in an unfamiliar room which scares me, I try to look around but I'm to weak to try. I faintly hear something from downstairs almost like a voice of the owner of the house. First off all why can't I die I mean seriously do I fail at that too, damn they were all right I am a failure. I grown in pain because I took all of those pills, the side effects are horrible. After a bit of laying down in silence I hear foot steps coming up to the door, I get really nervous because I have no fucking idea if they're gonna kill me. The door opens and a familiar boy with white hair and pale skin walks into the room, I get scared because he is my worst nightmare yeah he's that bad.
"You ok Y/N?" He asks, with almost a concerned voice
I don't speak 1.) I don't wanna talk to him and 2.)he's an asshole
"Please talk to me, I saved you" he talked again
"Sadly you saved me" I said, in a weak soft voice
"Why sadly? You were gonna die" he said
"Maybe that's what I want" I say, with more anger in my voice
"why?" He asked
Is he really this blind not to see the way, him and his friends hurt me. Is what he saying real? Did he just ask why? What the hell!
"Because of you Prussia, because of you and your asshole friends" I said, with anger and frustration at him
"I'm sorry" his said
He sorry now, what the fuck! He really doesn't get it, words and physical beatings can make someone wanna die. I better just be imagining this.
"I didn't want you to die, I didn't think you took it seriously" he defended himself
"What the hell is wrong with you do you seriously this that I was going to be ok with everything you do to me everything you say, you're a fucking asshole!" I get up and yell at him
"I'm sorry ok! We all make mistakes" Prussia said
"this a fucking mistake?! So telling me to kill myself, calling me a fat wore, beating me up is a fucking mistake" I say with tears threatening to fall
"I'm so sorry" he said, liked he met it
"I bet you really are" I said, rolling my eyes
"I am" he says honestly
But how am I supposed to believe he isn't lying, probably just trying to see how weak I really am. I'm turn over so I'm facing away from him even if the moving hurts, I don't wanna look at his face. It might be handsome but he's a asshat, an asshat with good looks. Why do I like him? That's the question I always ask myself, why and how.
"I made you something to eat" he said, trying to change the subject
"I'm not hungry,but thanks I guess" I say
"but" he tried speaking
"I said I'm not hungry" I interrupted him
"ok" he said back
I sigh and move to face him, his face has sadness written all over him. He truly does look sorry and ashamed of himself, which he should.
"I just... I just really like you" he said, blushing
Did he just say what, what the hell is wrong with this boy. This is some kind of joke, I know it's a joke that's for sure.
"no you didn't, you're just trying to use me so fuck off" I say and flip him off
"I really do" he said
Sure you do, I want to believe him but I can't.
"I want to believe you Prussia but to be honest I can't trust you at all" I say, truthfully
He looked so sad, wait why am I said for him? The hell..is this the feeling of love or is it just sympathy?
"Than I will make you believe me" he said, almost annoyed or frustrated
How can I believe him, he bullies me for fucks sake and now apparently he likes me. What the hell is my life becoming a soap opera.
"you can try" I say, lacking confidence

A/N~
Well I'm so sorry for the slow updates, also i hope you enjoy my story so far I work hard on it. And of course stay safe, I actually take metal health seriously! I have mental issues myself.

~ sincerely Wolf💜