Too Late

Chapter 5

Chapter Five.
Y/N's POV

What. The. Hell. Was. That?

It kept replaying in my head. Why would he do something like that? Did he like me? He did always stop me and compliment me. No, that's impossible. Who would like me? Gosh, did that seriously just happen?

About a million different questions ran through my head. Ashton was my best friend, the only person who'd give me the time of day besides Luke. He knew I liked Luke. I just didn't know what to do. I thought about calling him, but I just wasn't sure.

The clock struck eleven and brought me back to reality. I honestly had no clue on what to do. I'd talk to someone about it, but I only have him. I kissed him back, though. Did I have feelings for him? No. No. That's impossible. He's just my best friend. Best. Friend.

Climbing up the stair to bed, I didn't have the energy to do anything tonight. But this was seriously stressing me out. Luckily tomorrow was Saturday and I could just sleep in.

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The obnoxious ringing of my phone is what broke my precious slumber this morning. It felt like 5 o'clock, who calls at 5 in the morning? Before checking who it was, I had already answered it.

"Hello?" I answered groggily.

"Y/N?" The man sounded as if he were crying. I could barely tell who it was. But that's when it hit me.

"Ashton." I let out shakily.

"I. I. I thought you'd be sleeping..." He said unsurely.

"I would be, but my phone woke me up." My answer let out a little more annoyed than I intended it to be.

"I'm sorry, I just, I'm sorry." He sounded as if he were about to hang up.

"Wait."

"What?" He asked.

"Why'd you call? There has to be a reason, not to just say sorry and hang up as quickly as you can." I was starting to be more awake, now. "Just, talk. I won't be going back to sleep anytime soon, anyways."

"Can you meet me somewhere?"

"Yeah, sure. Where?"

"I don't know, but please, just, somewhere." He sounded urgent.

We agreed at this one place, it didn't have a name. It was hidden by trees, making it look like a dark and dangerous place, but little did people know that the sight was beautiful once you got into the middle. I've been there a couple of times since I moved here, it was my place to be alone. Apparently I wasn't the only one it's shown its beauty to. It was about a five/ten minute walk to get there from my house.

Making my way through the trees, I came across this fallen tree. It wasn't there last time I came, but it looked like it was supposed to be there. The tree created a bridge across a little stream. I always just walked through it, but now I didn't have to. I balanced myself and walked along the safety of the tree to the other side. A few more trees later, and there it was. The scenery was like something you'd see in a movie, coming this early had its perks. The grass was high, and covered in dandelions. There's a small cliff like thing, that's where I like to sit. It cliffs out right above the most gorgeous pond I've seen. It was pure blue, nothing else in it. Today was extra special, it reflected the sunrise, making everything see, so surreal.

Ashton was there by the time I had arrived. He probably drove over.

"Hi." I said. He turned around, face red and eyes puffy. I felt bad. I ran over to hug him. He was the only person who had actually cared about me since I arrived here. He was my only friend.

"I'm sorry." Was all he said.

"There's no reason to be sorry..."

"No, no. There is. Just let explain what that was back at your house." He waited for me to signal that I was listening. "I. I like you, Y/N. I like you a lot. You're pretty much the only person who gives me the time of day. You're my only friend. But, you, you like someone else. And I want you to be happy. I don't want to force this on you, but I want you to know."

Was he saying what I thought he was saying? Why would anyone like me? I didn't know what to say.

"Please say something?" He asked nervously.

"You were my first kiss, Ashton. You're my best friend. You're my only friend, and I should be the sorry one. I should be sorry for yelling at you before you kissed me. I am sorry. I don't know what you're asking from me, though."

At this point, we were laying down in the grass looking at the pink dusk sky turn into the baby blue color of the day. He didn't answer my question about what he was asking me, but we talked. We didn't talk about anything particular, but it was nice to have a conversation with someone. I had forgotten what it felt like. To feel loved. Ashton asked a question that brought me out of our daydream-like ways.

"Will you go out with me?"

I was shocked.

"I can't." I said probably too quickly and harshly.

"Will you at least tell me why?"

"You'll leave."

"I'll leave? What? No I won't."

"Yes, you will."

"What do you mean?"

"You'll leave, just like everyone else. Everyone leaves." He shot me a confused look before I stood up and walked away. "Everyone leaves." I muttered before speeding my pace up getting back to my house.

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This is probably shit, but oh well. Thanks for sticking with my horrible writing.
Xx K