it feels like forever since I have walked threw the hallways of beacon hills high school. it feels almost foreign I sat in my usual seat next to Danny
'hey Becca I hard that you took a major fall on the hike are you okay.' he asked while fighting something down.
'yeah I'm good luckily I didn't land on anything hard.' I said shrugging off his comment. thinking back to the fall things between me and Aidan hasn't been the same.
I mean when I woke up this morning he came over with Ethan.
It felt kinda like I was in autopilot going threw the day I wouldn't have known that it was the last period if Ethan and Scott wouldn't have gotten my attention
'Earth to Becca.' Ethan said waving his hand in front of my face.
'huh what?' I said blinking and looming at him.
'I said what are we going do after school?' he asked.
'I don't....'I started but stopped as so as Mrs.Blake waked into the room
she and I made eyecontact like I saw something flash threw my eyes that was telling me that she was about to do something huge and dangerous.
she walked over to her seat looking at me still like she was waiting for a reaction. that I didn't give her.
'alright class today I want to see how much you remember about Shakespeare's Othello
so clear your desks and get ready for the test.' she said picking up a large stack of papers
'once the first test is out there will be no talking untilled the end of the period.' she said stopping infringement of Isaac's desk.
pulling a test out of the stack and flopping it down. then movingbon to the next person doin to same before stopping at me with the last test.
' good luck m' she said adding. your going to need it. so that I heard it in my head.
I looked down at the test knowing that I have covered all of thias material threw this school and the other one that I went to.
I wonder how long it will take for them to( figure out that you are more of their enemy than I am.
I heard her voice echo threw my head. I fryer to block her out but images from my dream last night kept coming back seeing Scott bloody and beaten like that.
what is it going to take to put you in back in that mind. frame that you wild be willing to kill someone that easily.
she mocked taking me back to a place in my life that I thought I would never bring back. after what happened with Ethan and Aidan I sort of snapped. km not sure what would have yo happen to take me back there. but I know that i don't wanna go.
I tried to block her out as much as I could but was failing. she got into my head and was bringing up bad memories.that i didnt want to think about after Ethan and Aidan did what they did to my family i sort of snapped i did a lot of bad things to innocent people telling myself that i was doing something right.
i lifted my head glairing at her. she smirked at me with a look that said i understood why she was doing what she was. Sacrifice every time you take someones life in a sacrifice. i brings a sort of rush that is followed by a high that is unforgettable it is like taking all of the natural power that you have and doubbling it and making it hungry in a way of wanting more. like a drug that you cant say no to and once you start it becomes an aduction.
she is gaining power to do something big somethign ballsy that will drain all of it in one move. with a raise of her eyebrow. Ethan and Aidan came into veiw they turned in to twinzilla running at her with one swift motion they died.
i slapped my pencil down on the desk feeling my blood boil and my vision clowd. i could feel my breath pick up and rage coursing threw me.
'Becks you alright.' Ethan asked. i nodded not being able to talk trying to calm down the rapid sucession of my breath. i looked at the clockd i still had 45 mins before this period ended.
'there it is.'
i pushed my chair away from my desk fists balled like i was going to hit her. Ethan grabbed my arm litterally dragging me out of the classroom and out of the doubble doors dragging me towards the feild.
'Becca what has gotten in to you.' He said.
'Im fine.' i said trying to calm down. i started pacing
'you dont look fine.' he said watching me pace.
' i just need to...' i started then stopped when i realized that there was an audience.looking around i saw the entirte of the gym class and our english class. standing there looking at me. letting me know that i was making a scean. 'will you grab my bag and bring it to me.' i said pulling the keys to my car out of the pocket them were in and leaving.
i headed for the gym needing to clear my head the best way that i knew how.
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entering the room it was empty and will stay that way cause i reserved the room there were heavey bags hanging from the ceiling mirrors to the left covering the whole wall. i had changed into som loose fitting shorts and a sports bra as i finished wraping my hands i walked over to the adio system that was in the wall scanning my membership card and my play list poping up.
i stopped on crying like a bitch by godsmack walking over to one the bags hanging on the adjacent wall just as the bass beat starts to play i took a deep breath letting my fist fly conecting with the bag feeling alittle of the fustration the anger from knowing that she is winning and everything with Aidan jsut go. and for the frist time in along time i felt free.
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