Born Sinner

Jermaine

I got on the bus for the first in a while hoping that I would be allowed to be in the school. I've missed more than seven days and my grades are in the toilet so I doubt that my chances are high. To be honest I'm doing this for Zoee. I need to prove to her that I'm the same person I was when we were close. I hope I didn't mess that up.

"Jermaine I haven't seen you in a while where have you been" The women at the front desk said with a smile

I shrugged "Been going through a lot at home that's all but did Mr.Bane want to talk to me"

"Yeah go on in there and good luck"

I nodded and walked into his office he was on the phone but hung up once he saw me walk in. Man I hope he's in a good mood because I can't afford to be kicked out.

"Hello"

I shool his hand and sat down "You wanted to talk to me"

"Yeah I've noticed that you haven't been coming to school and your grades are slipping. Two of the deadlines for the scholarship was to be here and to get good grades. Your not meeting both of them so I'm sorry to say that your scholarship has been suspended."

I sighed and rubbed my beard "Man can I at least be on probation"

"your probation ended last week son I'm sorry"

I nodded "That's alright. Nice talking to you sir you have a nice day"

"You too"

I stood up and walked out of the office wondering what the hell I was going to do. My mom is going to kill me once she figures out that I got kicked out and will have to go to public school. I stood at the bus stop and waited for the bus to come. The whole ride home I thought about Zoee. I needed her back I needed her to be mine and me getting kicked out of school isn't going to help.

"Wassup nigga" A dude I fuck with named Wayne asked as he took a puff of his black and mild.

I dapped his up and placed my hands back in my pocket "Wassup"

"Not shit trying to fuck with these thots and smoke up some weed and drink a little something. What you on"

I shook my head "Ahh not shit right now"

"You should slid through then. We gone be a Gotty place later on passing that joint might me a few hoes and I know it's gone be some liquor" Wayne was all about hoes liquor and weed.

"I might slide through I gotta handle some things first"

He nodded his head "Alright I'll holla at you later then my nigga you stay good"

"Always man same to you"

I reached my building and went to my door. I could hear music blasting in the house. I opened the door up and saw my grandma cleaning up the house. The thing my mom should be doing. My grandma is always picking up my mom slack around the house.

"Hey grandma" I kissed her cheek and went to the fridge

"Hi baby where you coming from"

"Uh school.." I grabbed me a water and tried to leave the room as fast as I could so that I could avoid the situation

She turned the music down "How's that going I still cant believe my baby up at that nice school I brag about you all the time"

"Well um today I went to talk to the principal and he told me that my scholarship was suspended so I can't go there anymore because I don't have the money to pay the tuition"

She shook her head "Boy what's going on you were doing good and don't you dare blame your mother" She held her finger up and pointed at me

"Man I don't know"

"Don't man me. You need to get it together and quick Jermaine. Your hanging with these dope dealers and messing with these no good girl instead of worrying about your goal of leaving this slum ass town" My grandma never talked to me like this "So ima need you to get it together and quicm before you end up just like yo daddy"

I let the words sink into my brain and then something came over me. I was never going to get out of this fucking town. My great grandparents lived here and my kids kids will live here so why not slang that dope and ruck with hoes. I only live once and I'm trying to have fun. So why should I work hard and it gets me no where but a bunch of regrets in life.

I decided that I would take Wayne up on that offer and slide through. It was around nine and the party was just getting started. Girls coming weed being rolled and drinks getting poured. I was about to live tonight.

"What you trying to do" A cutie with a fat ass named Lauren asked

I shrugged "Shit nothing what about you, you tryna go someplace"

"I mean if you want to"  Her whole body language was telling me yeah

"Alright lemme finish this blunt and my drink and then we can go"

She nodded "Alright just don't forget about me"

"Trust me I wont" I took a hit of the blunt and passed it to Wayne

I didn't forget about Lauren but I did forget what all happened that night all I know is that we fucked. Don't know where and I don't know if it was good. But I lived that night for real.