The Way She Was

chapter 10

Italics are Romie

Normal writing : narrator

I disliked her strongely, scratch that i hated her, i hated her with every fiber of my body, not because she was also gay, but because she was taking Romie away from me, slowely but surely. I was envious of Rowan,she was perfect for Romie, i wanted them to be together, i wanted Romie to be happy, but i was afraid, i was afraid that Romie was going to forget about me, because not only will she like her, she will love her with everything she's got, and that love was only meant for me, i was worried that Rowan was going to hurt her and she"ll push me away. God i tried to be happy for her, i tried to feel joyful,but i couldn't, i couldn't lie to myself anymore, i was terrified of losing her,maybe i was too possessive,too protective over her, maybe i should let her go, if that meant her being joyous and lively then i would do it.

"That's great" i said faking squeals

"I know, im so blessed to have you " she said placing her palms on her cheeks " i can't stop smiling" she laughed

"I don't want to a party pooper, but is she gay" i asked her

"She's bi " she corrected

"That's great you got a shot" i cheered

"Oh shit , it already sunrise, we have to move"

"Come on, let's stay and watch it, you can scratch that out of your bucket list" i winked

She looked at me and sighted "fine."

In eight grade,Romie made a bucket list, she wrote everything she wanted to do with my help of course,it goes like this:

1-Go to a party

2-prank a teacher

3-get suspended

4-sneak out

5-steal a car

6-midnight car ride

7-watch the sun rise

8-first kiss

9-try indian food

10-fall in love

Well we can scratch 2,3,4,5,6,7, four more to go, we actually got suspended together,we pranked our Arabic teacher,basically there was a broken table outside of her class,while we had break we exchanged her table with the broken one,with a little help from the guys, when it was time for class, she sat on it and fell,it was funny,we joked about it for days,the good about it is that we weren't the only ones that got suspended, half of the class got suspended as well ; our parents didn't know of course, we got a three day suspension,each day we would wake up,pretend to go to school,meet up instead and spend the rest of the day together.

"I can scratch a lot of things out of my bucket list,after this night"

"Thank me later" i winked " come on let's go, before my dad wakes up"

"Im up" she said,hoping off the hood

We got in the car and drove away,but this time with no loud music,just peace and quiet, she looked beautiful,she was stunning, with the sun shinning on her face,illuminating her features,she looked deep in thought, and that made her look even better.

I had no idea what was on her mind, what was she thinking that made her look so out of it,but i hoped i was a part of her thoughts, that she was thinking about me, about this night,i prayed that i wasn't the only one that  wished for this night to never end.

Alas,all good things come to an end.