Autumn-On Hold

Memory Two

I just made a big cup of tea, so that I could write this chapter. This was the beginning of a dark time for me. The next memory of mine is about how I was during that summer because I was nowhere near okay. I didn't have anyone after that day. Just know that this is going to be one of many hard chapters for me to write.

July 16, 2015

It has been almost two months since my "friends" dumped me. I ended the school year as a loner. My grades dropped, but my parents and teachers didn't notice that something was wrong. My personality lessened, but I don't think that my family has noticed.

My depression started to become even worse than it was before. That most likely made my depression worse. Before, my depression showed up when something triggered it. But since the breakup, my depression has gotten ten times worse and more effective.

I watched them go off and spend their summer with their "awesome" friends. If they ever passed me in the halls they never glanced at me, and if they ever did, it was unnoticeable.

After a couple of weeks, I was over trying to figure out what I did wrong and why everyone left me at the same time. I started to write my feelings here in this journal of mine. I haven't written a story since that day when I finished revising and editing it with Britt.

It's depressing. It used to be my life. My outlet. My fantasy. My everything. Now, I have nothing. I don't write. I don't have friends. My parents hardly pay attention to me anymore.

I'm all alone. In this big world. All by myself. With no one to lean on.

I don't know what I am going to do for the rest of the summer. I may go and try to have fun. My family may go on a vacation. I hope that I'm not lonely forever.

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So there's the chapter. Thoughts?

Please tell me if anything doesn't make sense while you are reading, it helps a lot.

Thanks for reading, Stormies!

xoxo,

Aless