Bad Secrets

Nikki

Tonight is Thursday Night Smackdown, Tonight I have the night off, so I was at catering with the rest of the girls. Last Monday I was hurt after my match against Alicia Fox. Roman walked out after my match to check on me but I just slapped him. He just doesn't get it! He thinks that I'll forgive him all because he checks up on me. After I slapped him, he followed me backstage where I tried to slap him again but he caught my hand and did the unthinkable.. He kissed me, like legit kissed me. The kiss was full of anger and passion, something that I couldn't explain, I just know that I wanted more.. When we kissed, it reminded me of when we were happy and together, I had to stop him. So I shoved him and told him off. Two things from last Monday, have been stuck on my mind for these past few days. The kiss is one of them, we kissed as if we were both upset about letting go, like if we didn't want to be apart, if that makes any sense.. Another thing is after I closed my locker room door, I felt Roman lean on the door, and whisper "I still love you Nikki Bella." Now that is what I don't get, he says he still loves me but then he was the one that ended what we had. If you ask me, that is no way to prove your love to someone. Right now I don't even know what to think. "Nikki?!" Someone yelled out my name, snapping me back into reality. I looked up and saw that it was Naomi that called me. "Uh, yea?" She shook her head "Why are you even sitting with us? Why aren't you in your locker room, crying somewhere?" I was shocked by her words. "Excuse me? I'm here because I want to be." She rolled her eyes "I'm just saying, if you gonna sit us only to be moping and stuff, don't sit with us at all.. You give the girls from the Women's division a bad name.. You make us look like pathetic, little girls.. Like we all get that Roman dumped you at your wedding, but get over it." That was it for me.. No one can tell me to get over it, I deal with things my way. I pushed the table and got up. "What the hell? I give the Women's division a bad name? I'm not moping, I'm just quiet.. Yes it is about Roman dumping me at the alter!! Because not one of you know what I'm going through right now! So don't tell me that I'm pathetic! If anything, you guys are the only ones who are pathetic, because you actually think that your relationships and marriages are gonna last. But they aren't!! You are all gonna end up looking pathetic like me.. And Naomi, you might actually be the first one, because we all that your Jimmy has a wandering eye.. He's flirted with everyone on this division, now the fact that you haven't stopped him, that makes you a weak, pathetic woman." She had anger written on her ace, she got up and slapped me hard across the face. My blood boiled over, I hopped over the table and tackled her to the ground. I was beating her until all the other girls jumped in. Charlotte pulled me off and tried punching me in the face but I blocked it and banged her head off the table. Then Emma and someone I don't even know hit me from behind, I tried to get up but I couldn't. I felt Emma get pulled off of me, and saw Brie punching her in the face, then I saw Paige hitting Charlotte. All three of us tried to fight all of them off, but the numbers game caught up to us quickly.. I laid there as they all beat me up, tears running down my face, why is all of this happening to me? I felt someone grab me and pull out of the group, they carried me bridal style. "This ain't over Nikki!" I heard all the girls yell.. I don't know who it that is carrying me but thank god, this person took me out of there. I felt my self being seated on a equipment box, I really didn't care where I was, I just wanted to see who pulled me out of the fight. I looked up and saw AJ Styles.. "AJ?" I heard my croak from all my crying. "Shh.. Don't speak, alright? Just let me check for any bruises or cuts." I nodded as he placed his hand on my chin and softly touched my face before moving to my arms. "T-Thanks AJ.. I owe you one." He chuckled "It's alright.. I'm happy to help you in anyway." After he was done checking me, he looked at my face, a piece of hair fell to my face but he tucked it behind my ear. "Gosh Nikki, I never noticed how-" His sentence was cut short when I saw Roman walking down the hall, pushing everyone in his path. His eyes connected with mine as he ran to me.. I hated to admit it but all I wanted to do now was kiss and hug him. He walked in front of AJ and gently grabbed my face. "Babygirl, what happened? I'm sorry I didn't help you, I was out for my match... God I'm sorry.. A-Are you hurt?" Now I really wanted to kiss him. "I'm fine, Joseph.. Thanks to AJ, he pulled me out of the fight." Roman turned around and saw AJ waving. "Um yea, I checked her out for bruises or cuts." Roman looked at me and then made this weird, I don't know like growling noise, I knew he was angry. "So what are you some kind of doctor or something, that you had to check her out?" Roman was about to walked up to AJ but I grabbed his hand and hopped off the equipment box. "I was just trying to help, I meant no disrespect to you.. I wouldn't want to get between you two." I shook my head "No AJ, you did help and I appreciate it.. Also it's not like that, me and Roman aren't together." He nodded and smirked "Oh well in that case, I'll see you around then, Nikki." He walked off. Roman ripped his hand from my grasp and leaned against the wall. I put my hand on his shoulder. "Roman, what's going on?" He turned around, angry. "What's going on?! You let Styles check you?" I nodded "Yes, he was just being nice." "Nice?! Oh yea right.., So if one day he kisses you on the lips, he's just being nice?" I looked at him. Does he really think I'm that type of girl? He always has to ruin everything. "Listen to me, Joseph! I was getting beat up, AJ pulled me out of the fight, you didn't.. So he was just being nice.. And how dare you say that I'll just let him kiss me, do you think I'm that low of a woman? What do you think I'm pathetic like everyone else?! You know what?! I don't have to explain anything to you!! We aren't even together!" His face softened up, and he grabbed my hands and pulled me close to him. "Nikki stop saying that.. I still love you." I looked up at him "Then why didn't you marry me? Why did you let go of all we had? Tell me, Joseph." He dropped his eyes to the floors and looked back at me with tears in his eyes. "I can't, as much as I want to.. I can't... Just trust and believe that I love you.." I shook my head, trying to stop tears from spilling. "I can't.. Roman, I can't." I slipped my hands from his and walked away from him.. Why won't he just tell me what is wrong? I won't turn my back on him, why won't he just trust me?