Bad Secrets

Nikki

I threw on my snapback and walked out of my locker room, and started heading straight to the gorilla. I have a match tonight against Natalya. I'm dreading the fact that I had to come into work today. I invited everyone from work to the wedding, they saw me get dumped in front of the alter.. They saw how embarrassed, hurt, and confused I was. I heard my name being called pulling me out of my thoughts, I turned around and saw Paige jogging towards me. "Hey Paige." I gave her the strongest smile I could manage... As most people, smiling isn't something I've been doing since my heart was crushed a few days ago. "Hey Nikki, I just wanted to see how you've been holding up? Since the um, wedding?" Her face full of pity.. I felt my eyes overflow, I quickly blinked my tears away and cleared my throat. "Good.. Listen.. P-Paige I have a-a match.. so um.. I'll s-see you l-later." My voice stuttered with sadness, I turned away before tears spilled out of my eyes. I don't want people feeling bad for me.. He did what he did for a reason, he said it's because he doesn't love me and I'm okay with that. I-I just can't stop thinking about him.. Roman. I finally reached the gorilla, Natalya was already out in the ring. So the stage manager quickly played my music and I walked out. I sent fake smiles out to the thunderous crowd and flipped into the ring.. The ref quickly rung the bell. During the entire match, I couldn't get my head right.. I couldn't focus, which was causing me trouble to fight Natalya back. It was happening again, Roman was running through my mind again. Our memories, and kisses, and hugs just l came rushing back to me. Natalya laid me hard on the mat with a discus clothesline line. She grabbed my legs and put me in the sharpshooter. I yelled out in pain as I tried reaching for the rope but I couldn't, so I tapped.

"The winner of this match.. Natalya!!"

I sat up in the ring.. I ran my fingers through my hair, frustrated. Why can't I just stop thinking about him? He's in my mind every minute, every second of the day.. And now he's causing me to lose my matches.. I need to forget him, forget all about him. I rolled out the ring and walked backstage, and there he was, talking to Brie and Ambrose.. This time I couldn't help it, tears flowed out like a waterfall. I covered my mouth as I try to muffle my sobs as I walked by them. Of course it didn't work. His voice was the first to speak "Babygirl, you alright?" I stopped dead in my tracks, there it was, the word I loved hearing everyday. But now it just made me angry. I turned around and walked up to him and shoved him, but being twice my size, he didn't budge.. "No! Don't you ever call me that, ever again!! Matter of fact, why don't you just, just... LEAVE ME ALONE!" I turned around to walk away, but Brie grabbed my arm, making me face her. "Nicole, why are you acting like this?" I looked at her, shocked. "Huh.. Let me ask you something, sister.. Did Dean tell you at the alter, at your wedding that he couldn't marry you because he didn't love you anymore? Did he leave you embarrassed and broken?" She shook her head and let go of my arm. "Nicole, you know I never meant to hurt you." I looked up to Roman, tears running down my face.. "Yea.. Right." This time I turned and walked, quickly to my locker room, shutting and locking the door behind me. I sat on a bench, my back against the wall, tears streaming down my cheeks. God, I'm such a mess.