Not Another Teen Pregnancy Story

Chapter Two Breaking Up

Three minutes.

That's when the party will officially start. People were already lined up at my door, they snaked down the whole street. Probably went further, but I could only see one street down. 

"Are you sure you want to do this?" Beth asked me, her big doe-eyes searching my face for something she wouldn't find.

"Is it because I'm a girl, that you think I can't do this?" I snapped. She looked like I just shot her, I sighed, I didn't want to start the night like this.

"No, because you're my friend and I think you might actually like Daniel. Why don't you continue to date him?" I rolled my eyes and signalled for the guy at the door to let everyone in. I was done talking to my friends, I was breaking up with Daniel and that was it.

"Thanks for the advice, but no thanks." I walked over to Daniel and wrapped my arms around him, kissing him softly on the cheek. Why was I doing all of this? I instantly forgot when I looked up at Daniel's  ocean colored eyes. Why'd he have to be so perfect?

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*Roughly Around Midnight*

"Why don't we go upstairs and talk?" The music was bumping through-out the house. I couldn't make out the people around me, they were just bodies slammed up against each other. Jeesh, throw a party and the hormones just about explode in people. 

I knew what this meant: sex. I wasn't stupid, I had a 4.5 GPA and as a sophomore was taking some college classes. Not to mention all the volunteer hours I sacrificed out of my life to help: children, animals, and old people. Anything I hadn't learned in a class room, I watched on TV in strangely realistic documentaries to fill in the gaps.

"Totally." I flashed him a smile and he took my hand and we walked up the spiral stairs case to the third floor where the bedrooms were. Daddy made good money, but he didn't get to stay home much. Or at all. Business was very important to my dad, especially after my mom died.

"'Kay cool because I cannot hear one word you've said all night." I hadn't said much so he hadn't missed much. Beth and Chris had planted the seed of doubt in my brain and it was growing wildly. Should I break up with Daniel? It kept swirling around my mind. Honestly, I was sorta waiting on a sign to tell me to break up with him or not.

"Gotta love surround sound." I flopped down on my bed and propped myself up on my elbows. I never tried to be seductive, it just came naturally.

"Yeah, hey uh I wanted to tell you something, but I don't know how cliche it's going to sound." I looked up at Daniel through my eye lashes, he seemed nervous. Daniel M was never nervous. So what was up with him? Was he gonna try and break up with me before I got the chance? I'd never been dumped before...

I sat up, leaning back on the goose down feather pillows. The skirt of my dress pulled up towards me, exposing my porcelain skin. I briefly looked down at my thigh and back at Daniel. He had noticed the extra skin shown.

"Well, just say it. I'll judge how cliche it is." He smiled and shoved his hands in his pockets. Okay, definitely not breaking up with me. He was kinda cute, in a puppy-dog meets abercrombie model. The guy was a God amongst the others guys at school. But there was something vacant about Daniel that had me reeling since I first met him. Of course I never mentioned that to anymore.

"I know we've only been dating for a couple months, but I already know how I feel about you Lydia." I nodded, gesturing for him to go on. He didn't, he wanted me to say something. My throat was dry and it was hard to speak.

"I uh... I'm not good with words." Daniel sat on the edge of my bed. I felt so far away from him on the king sized bed. "Daniel...all I know is that I want you." I meant it, I wasn't lying or exaggerating. I knew there was something inside of me that longed for someone to long for that longed for me. That was a lot of longs. I mean love. I want to love someone, but am I capable of loving someone else?

"Lydia, I lo-" I stopped him by smashing my lips into his. I didn't want to hear it. Unlike most girls I don't like mushy stuff. I might want someone to love, but until I can love them I don't want to hear that they love me. That might not make any sense, but it does to me.

Sometimes things don't make sense.

I didn't want to be a Romeo & Juliet kind of couple I want to be Heathcliff & Cathy. 

I came back to reality and realized clothes were being taken off. Did I want this? Yes, I wanted Daniel.

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*The Next Morning*

The sun warmed my bare back. Mmhh, it felt nice. The sun hadn't been this bright for weeks, I had missed the sun. I rolled over to bask in the light more directly when I came in contact with a warm body.

"Oh." I blinked my eyes open and saw Daniel in bed next to me. Why was he still here?

"Good morning beautiful." He sounded a sleepy. I held the sheet around me and reached over the side of the bed for my bra and panties. 

"Yeah, morning. Hey, not to sound rude or anything, but why are you still here?" I grabbed a pink tee and pulled it over my head. Where were my boy-shorts? I knew my dad wouldn't be home, he wasn't due to come home for another week.

"Uh what? Are you serious?" He arched his eyebrows dramatically. I noticed he had his boxers on.

"I thought it was a simple question, why are you here?"  I found my shorts and shrugged them on.

"Do you want me to leave? Because I'm not going to. Why? Because I don't want to be a booty-call or a man-whore, which is what you're making me feel right now." He crossed his arms over his chest. I smirked.

"Okay do you need a midol?" I put my hands on my hips. He rolled his eyes and threw a pillow at me. I dodge it, I was a Cheerleader, you had to be limber.

"Are you sure you're a female?" He retorted grabbed another pillow and getting ready to aim.

"Are you sure you're not a female?" I giggled and threw a pillow at him. It hit his shoulder. He dropped the pillow he was gonna throw and charged at me. I squealed and he threw us on the bed.

"I think I like you better when you're sleeping." He was hovering over the top of me. The sun hit his hair and it glimmered like a diamond. Why was he so perfect?

"Daniel... Last night.... last night I was supposed to break up with you." I gasped. 

"Yeah, but you didn't. So... maybe you're human." I smacked his arm playfully. I pursed my lips. "Why are you tripping over this? You know, some people date longer than three dates." I sat up.

"Three dates. One Party. That's what I do." I said it on autopilot in monotone.

"What? You only ever go on three dates with one guy?" I met his gaze, he was bewildered. He had only lived here for a couple years so he didn't know that my motto was almost religious to me.

"Only three official dates and then I throw a party and at the party whatever the guy wants to do is allowed and then I break up with him." Shut up! Stop telling him this! You're sabotaging yourself with him! 

"Is that why we had sex last night? Because "whatever the guy wants to do is allowed," how can you do that?" He recoiled and stood up. I knew he would react like this.

"No, we had sex so you wouldn't say you loved me." I spat at him. Tears welled in my eyes. 

The look Daniel gave me will forever be burned in my mind. It made my knees shake and my heart skip a beat.

He started to say something, but stopped. "You don't have to worry about that." He grabbed his clothes and left. I heard my front door shut, he didn't slam it. He just closed it like any other normal person would. I think that's what hurt the most. That he didn't act out when he wasn't getting his ways, he acted so mature.

My eyes wouldn't stop filling with tears. My knees gave out, hugging my knees to my chest I cried and cried.

What happened? I had my motto so this wouldn't happen.