*sigh*

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I haven't uploaded for a while now, mainly because I couldn't think of anything to upload, but I guess I can just tell you how my new quarter is going, yes new quarter.

I literally just started a new quarter last week and it's already gone to hell. I feel lonely as hell and constantly want to die or cry or both and I hate it. Which is why I took yesterday off,  (Also because I was kind of sick). I have one friend I'm three classes and lunch with a crap load of people, although I don't talk to anyone because I feel as though I don't fit in even though I'm friends with most of them. There's just too many people there which makes me feel trapped and uneasy and everyone there is so much more obnoxious and energetic than me. Lunch is normally the point of the day where everything goes down hill and it isn't even half way through the day. Not to mention my friend who I have a giant crush on sits with me at lunch, and he knows that I like him and everyone else always says "oh you're so handsome" to him and I know he is but UGH nevermind I don't want to explain this again. Im just gonna say that I hate myself even more than ever, I feel even more lonely than ever. And I'm even more scared of people then ever before and I cannot go through an entire quarter of this, it's literally hell on earth and I cannot continue to go through it.

Glad I got that out.
Bye, I probably won't update again for a couple weeks or so.

Oh yeah, I got Instagram(again)
It's @bananamemoo
Have a good day.

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