A Night to Remember (Jerrie Fic AU) STORY ON EDIT MODE

Chapter Six

"Babe, I came as soon as I could! What happened?" Zayn appeared from behind the man checking up on Perrie and myself. He immediately hugged her when the paramedic finished. She smiled weakly at him, returning his embrace. I tugged at the blanket they gave me, trying to keep warm.

"I was making dinner, and Jade here was helping me out. We got a bit distracted...and the next thing we knew the whole kitchen was starting to get swallowed up in flames." Perrie frowned.

"How bad is the damage?" Zayn asked.

"The kitchen's gone from what I know. Everything else seems to be fine." Perrie was near to tears as she spoke. She must have worked hard on decorating the kitchen or something. I can just imagine Perrie being a bit indecisive on what the color of the walls should be.

"I guess this is a sign to not let you make dinner or we'll have to buy a new house!" Zayn chuckled, kissing Perrie on the cheek. "I'm going to go talk to the firemen real quick, okay love?" She nodded before he headed off. She quickly turned to me, nervous.

"Don't tell anybody what happened in there."

"Why would I? It's frowned upon to have any type of romantic relationship with a patient." I could probably lose my job.

"I could lose him." She whimpered. "I don't want to lose him, Jade."

"I could lose my job, Perrie." I retorted. "I could lose everything."

"Ugh, I shouldn't have done it..." she shook her head, tears rolling down her cheeks. Her words cut like glass. They hurt. The thought of her regretting what I've wanted for a long time is just unbearable to comprehend.

"Then why did you do it?" I whispered. If she was so worried about fuckin' Zayn, then why kiss me? "I-I don't know. It was in the heat of the moment! Hormones!"

"You can't blame everything on your baby, Per." I rolled my eyes at her. Seriously, what happens when she's a mother? Will she be blaming everything on the poor child too? "I won't tell anyone. But answer me this, how did you feel about it?"

She looked down at her hands, fidgeting. "I don't know how I feel, Jade."

I shook my head. She knows. She's just too afraid to admit it to herself or to me.

"Well, I liked it. Loved it even. I think you just made my year!"

"Jade..."

"No, let me finish. I regretted walking out on you. I regretted it when I got on the plane. I regretted it when I graduated. I regret it now. I still have feelings for you, Perrie. And I know you're married, and I know you have a baby on the way, but if you didn't have any of those things would you have given me a second chance?"

I waited as she lifted her head; she looked conflicted. She placed her hand on her growing bump, and rubbed small circles tentatively as her mind spun. "I love Zayn. I love that we have a baby together. I don't know if I'd ever change that or if I'd jeopardize it...I don't know."

I frowned. I didn't think her words would hurt this much. I sucked in a breath, trying not to show my emotions in front of her. I shouldn't be surprised by her answer. But then again, she did kiss me. "I want to be with you," I whispered, looking down at my hands. "I know it's wrong. But I know that's what I want."

I was surprised when I felt her finger hook under my chin. She smiled as she stared into my eyes. Her light blue orbs reminded me of waterfalls in the spring; all nice and crystal clear blue. She caressed my cheek. I leaned into it, just touching like this made everything better.

"You can't just come back into my life, and want me back after you left me, Jade." She whispered ever so softly. She might as well have stabbed me in the chest, and rip my heart out. "I know you still care for me. I care a lot for you. I don't know what happened in the house earlier. My hormones maybe, but what we did was wrong. I shouldn't have kissed you."

"But you did." I muttered.

"I shouldn't have. Maybe there are some left over feelings from the past, but...I don't think it's possible right now to revisit them. Especially when I'm married."

"But Perriewinkle..." I sobbed. I bit the inside of my cheek as I whispered the nickname I gave her back when we were in high school. She shook her head.

"Don't make this harder than it has to be, Jade." She squeezed my hand.

I nodded. I know she's doing the right thing. I just...I can't let her get away so easily. Whatever happens I want to fight for her. I want to fight for her like she fought for me all those years we've been together, and was hiding it. I owe it to Perrie.

"I should go look for Zayn. I'll see you at our next appointment." She gives me a peck on the cheek before walking away. I'll let her go for now. But I know for a fact that I want her. I love her. And there's nothing I won't do to make sure she's mine again. Even if that means breaking her family apart.

A/N: Hey guys, I won't be updating for a while since I start school on Monday, so yeah. 

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