Long Way Home // 5sos

06

(A/N: I know I keep skipping days and stuff, but it's just what's helping me write right now I guess. I promise I'll stop doing it soon. It's honestly even irritating me. ALSO This chapter could be possibly triggering.)

-a few days later-

A few days had passed since Calum and I started talking again and it was nice not having to hate my best friend. I really missed him. Things didn't really change much, but that might also be because we kind of flirted before the whole pantry thing. 

I was officially cleared of my concussion, but the guys kept saying they were still worried about me. They kept making a big deal out of the fact that I haven't eaten in a few days, but I didn't see what was so wrong with it. 

I won't dare tell them, but I didn't mind not eating. I needed to lose some weight anyway. 

Calum was currently trying to get me to eat as we were sitting in my room. I've been liking just staying in my room recently too. I was sitting on the edge of my bed while he was sitting next to me.

"Mads, please eat something. You're starting to get shaky." he said, looking at my hands that were holding my phone. 

"Or you're seeing things." I shrugged. 

"No, that's going to be you in a few hours if you don't eat." he sighed. 

"Calum, I'm fine!" I snapped. 

"Have you looked in the fucking mirror, Madelaine? You barely ate during the concussion, but now it's getting out of hand. I can see your ribs!" he yelled, pulling my shirt up a little. 

I rolled my eyes and tugged my shirt down. 

He stood up in front of me and put his hand out for me to grab.

"Come on, you're eating." he said. 

"Just leave me alone, Calum." I mumbled. 

"Why are you being so fucking stubborn? Why are you being like this?" he said, almost yelling. 

"It doesn't fucking matter! Just go away!" I yelled. 

"Sorry babe, but that's not going to happen until you eat." he said. 

"You're so annoying." I groaned. 

"More like I care." he said. "Why won't you just tell me what's wrong?"

"Because it's pathetic, okay? I'm pathetic." I said, looking down. 

"Don't ever say that about yourself. You aren't pathetic, Madelaine." he said, sitting next to me. 

"Just leave me alone!" I snapped again, getting up and walking across the room. 

"You've never done this. You always open up to me." he said almost in a whisper. 

"You really want to know what's wrong me with? Fine! I'm not good enough and I never will be! I look in the mirror and it bothers me! I'm not skinny, I'm ugly, I'm just not good enough. You say you like me, but I'll never believe it because look at me!" I yelled, tears had started to roll down my cheeks. I covered my face, not really wanting to be more self conscious about Calum seeing me cry. 

I felt my arms being moved from my face and Calum's arms snaked around my waist. 

"None of that is true. Madelaine, you're actually so fucking perfect. I was actually scared you were going to reject me." he said, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. 

"You're just saying that." I sighed. 

"If I was just saying it, why would I do this?" he asked. 

He gently pressed his lips against mine, which once again, I gave in and kissed back. 

When he pulled away, I couldn't help but smile. 

"Madelaine, you're beautiful. You don't need to do anything to try to change yourself. Please will you just eat something? I don't want anything to happen to you." he said, now that I wasn't being a bitch I could see the worry in his eyes. 

"Fine." I whispered. 

He smiled, obviously feeling accomplished. 

We started walking downstairs, but once we reached the bottom of the stairs, that's when everything went black.

-Calum's POV- 

As Madelaine and I walked downstairs, I was trying to figure out what I could make her that she would be excited to eat. 

We reached the bottom of the stairs, then I felt Madelaine's body starting to go limp. 

"Lainey?" I said. 

She didn't reply. For about ten seconds it was like she was in her own world. Suddenly, she started falling. I caught her before she hit the ground and the guys ran over to see if she was okay. 

I knew the cause of this was not having food for awhile. I should have tried harder a few days ago to get her to eat. 

Here we were, calling 911 because I didn't notice she was getting bad. 

~

-Madelaine's POV-

I woke up to a pounding head and the sound of beeping. 

When I opened my eyes, I realized I was in a hospital. 

"Lainey!" I heard Calum yell from beside me. 

He had leaned on the bed, holding my hand. 

"What happened?" I asked. 

"You passed out from not eating. They're giving you fluids to help." he said. 

"Oh." I said, quietly. 

"Just get some rest. The doctor called your mom and she said she's on her way." he said. 

I nodded and tried to fall back asleep. Eventually, I did just that. 

~

I was eventually woken up by Calum and the doctor. I was finally being released as long as my vitals were okay. 

When they said my vitals were fine, they came in and unhooked me from all the monitors. They wanted to send me to a therapist, but I declined. They told Calum to make sure I was eating and if I wasn't they gave him some number to a rehab place. Before I could leave, they had to bring my release papers, which I had to change back into my clothes anyway. 

Just when I thought things were going okay, my mother walked in. I knew this wasn't going to end well because of the look on her face. 

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Okay, I really don't know how I feel about this chapter at all.. I'm sorry it sucks, but it was a spur of the moment chapter. I had the plan, but didn't know how I was doing it.