Last Breathe
I lay there in the warm water, tears rolling down my face. My life was pointless, my Boyfriend had just finished with me, Mum and Dad split up 3 days ago, my two best friends, Emma and Allie were moving schools in 2 days, the whole of my year group hated me. I didnt 'fit in' all because i wore black. I glanced down at my wrist tracing the scars which were just painful reminders of all the taunting in my past years. I wanted it to end, for it all to be over and done with i didnt want to live another day felling the way i did. I took a deep breathe, my last one, and held it. Staring at one spot on the
cieling i could hear my heart getting faster. Faster. Faster. Quieter and quieter, then i could no longer hear the soft pounding of my heart. My vision went blury. Panic rushed through my body. My limbs froze. My eyes began to close. That was it. The end. I was gonna die. Panic painfully ripped through me. A sharp pain in my lungs. I desperatly wanted to breathe but my body wouldnt listen. Finally my mouth opened, at the thought of my sweet 4 tear old brother's face when he found
out that Annie was in heaven, i gasped in the air coughing and splutering. I lifted my head and suddenly i went dizzy. I went spiraling back down into the warm water. Limbs in full motion now i kicked at the sides of the bath and my head bobbed up again. I gasped in more air. I lifted my head, this time slowly, and sat up in the bath tub. Sickness radged through my body. I leaned over the side and retched. I vomited all over the bathroom floor and suddenly felt better i stood up and climbed out of the bath, Standing in the pool of vomit not really caring i stood in front of the mirrow staring my self in the eye. Mascara had ran down my face and all my black 'emo' make-up had smudged. I peeled of my wet soggy clothes and went to my bedroom. soaking wet, nude, cold and covered in vomit and make up, i clambered into my bed and cried myself to sleep.
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So Guys That Was The First Chater Of My Story About A Young Girl Wanting To Take Her Own Life, Drawing Her Last Breathe. On Deaths Doorstep She Panicks, This Isn't What She Wants. Opening Her Eyes, She Snaps Back To Reality. Hope You Like It. Comment Please :) x
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