The Truth or Dare (Niall Horan Fanfic)

Part 28

Alex POV

Harry ended up driving me home that night and it has been three days since I had last heard Niall’s voice.

I had been in my bed for three days straight – just thinking, sulking, crying… Why didn’t I just leave him alone? Why didn’t I just tell him?

Oh yeah, that’s right. I was afraid. I was afraid I would lose him – which has obviously happened now. I was afraid that I would lose – lose someone who… knows me better then I know myself.

I was cut off from my thoughts when I heard a knock on my bedroom door. I didn’t speak up. I didn’t say a word to anyone ever since my fight with Niall. I felt empty and guilty. I was too busy crying.

“Alex?” Ellie poked her head in the small gap of the door. “Hey…”

I still couldn’t bring myself to form a word.

Sighing, I closed my eyes. I probably looked a mess right now.

“Alex, I know you’re upset… but can you at least tell me what it is about?” Ellie paused so I could reply – only to find me lying on my bed with tears still shredding from my eyes. “Alex, whatever it is, please, at least try to eat something?”

I hadn’t eaten in 3 days – impossible? No. It was easier than I thought.

Still not getting a word from me, Ellie allowed herself into my bedroom, “Is it about Niall?”

Niall. Just hearing his name pains me.

I could feel my chest tightening and more tears starting to flow out.

Ellie hesitated, “I knew it. I should’ve tried harder to stop you.”

“Alex, can you please at least eat something?” Her eyes filled with concern. “Please?”

“I – I – I’m not hun-hungry.” I managed to form a sentence – my voice was strained from all the crying and I was dehydrated.

“That’s a lie, stop punishing yourself.” Ellie ran a hand through my knotted hair, “I put you in this position, if any one here should be punished, it’s me. I’m so sorry.”

I shook my head, “I should be punished. You gave me a choice, but I refused to take it. I refused to take it because if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t been on the streets, suffering – maybe even dead by now. You’re my saviour Ellie – I owe you too much. Too much that not even the rest of my life, I can repay.”

“Besides, even though my heart is still beating, I have died long ago.”

My words hit Ellie hard and the next thing you know – Ellie was crying too, “Alex, don’t be naïve.”

I wasn’t going to lie.

There was a time where I could love.

But the truth was – it was long gone.

It was ripped away from me ever since my mother died.

Ever since, my own fucken dad killed her.

My heart fell.

It stopped loving.

It stopped. It was torn away from me.

What is love?

I had thought I loved Niall – but to be honest, I didn’t even know what love was anymore.

Maybe that’s why I didn’t tell him.

Maybe that’s why I betrayed him, because I didn’t love him.

“Alex, you’re not dying.” Ellie tried to smile, “you just need to eat and you’ll be well again, that’s all I want in return.”

I chuckled – weakly, “Ellie, to be honest. I can’t, I can’t bring myself to eat. The only thought and wish I had wanted for three days was to die. To escape this misery. To stop myself from doing any damage to Niall and you any further.”

“But you’re not doing any damage to us!” She sob – pleaded. “Please stop making me worry and just eat.”

“Ellie, I rather die than stay alive. Because what is the point of staying alive if you can’t love anyone?” I was sobbing uncontrollably.

She hugged me close and felt my forehead, “Holy shit, you’re throbbing hot. I’m taking you to the hospital.”

I just smiled, “I am so blessed to have a friend like you.”

“And you will continue,” She cried – rushing out to call George for help to carry me.

God, take me away now.

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Niall POV

Three days. Three days without her. Three days of complete sadness.

“Hey mate, I know you probably hate her but-”

“I don’t hate her.” I cut off Harry. “In fact it is the opposite.”

I need to get over Alex. Alex needs to leave my mind.

She doesn’t deserve my love – but why couldn’t I stop loving her?

She is just like any other pap – heartless. But why do I love her so much?

“Right, well. Her friend Ellie is on the phone, and she seems eager.”

I scoffed, “aren’t all paps?”

“No, seriously Niall.” Harry ran a hand through his curls, “I think you should take this call.”

“No Harry. If it’s because she is upset or crying or something like that- ”

“So you’re just going to let her suffer?” Harry cut me off.

I shrugged. “Harry – ”

“I thought you were better than this.” Harry brang the phone to his ears, “Niall’s busy, you could tell me and I’ll give him the message later.”

To be honest, I wanted to take the phone call.

I wanted to tell Alex that everything will be okay and that eventually, I will learn to forgive her.

But I couldn’t, I shouldn’t.

My thoughts were cut off by a raging Harry.

“She what!?” Harry shouted – causing me to flinch.

Something’s happening. Something, bad.

Oh no, what if she –

“I’ll be there in 5 minutes.” Harry quickly ended the call and began getting dressed.

He looked panicked.

“What. What happened, Harry?” I asked gently – but quite rushed.

“Fuck.” He cussed quietly putting his boots on.

“What the fuck happened Harry? What’s wrong with Alex?!” I grew impatient and basically roared at him.

He looked up from his boots, “this is because of you! If you would’ve  been a little more thoughtful and considerate of how fragile Alex was, then she would’ve ended up this way!”

“Harry, what the fuck happened to Alex!?” I gripped Harry’s shirt.

He scoffed and swatted my arm away, “why would you care?”

I widened my eyes, “what happened?”

He grimaced, “are you coming or not?”

I swiftly slipped on some shoes and rushed out of the room with Harry.

What ever happened…

God, please let Alex be okay.

OMFG.

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~ Lynda : )