Just A Gamer *UNDER EDITING*

Please..

*Okay everyone this may be triggering to some so here is a warning, I will have another warning right before the part. It does involve self-harm and a mention of it. Which means this probably isn't the happiest chapter*
Here's An adorable Evan and Mini Ladd ^-^ <3

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I laugh lightly when I hear Bryce's laugh echo throughout the house. He was recording with Del, Ohm, and Cartoonz. Even though he's been in there for hours I don't mind, he's having fun. I was flipping through channels when something caught my eye, a picture of Evan on the news. "Okay John so what's going on with this Vanoss Gaming kid?"The lady on the news asks and the guy sighs. "A few hours ago the kid tried to commit suicide. He's only 24 Jill, too young. He's in the hospital right now trying to recover, they don't know if he'll make it. His fans are freaking out."The guy says and I feel the tears rolling down my face. "T-this can't be true"I whisper dialing his number. "You have reached the voicemail of Evan Fong"I hear from the other line then his sweet voice comes. "Hiya, Evan here! I'm sorry I couldn't answer! Text me or Call Again, I'm bound to answer eventually"He says chuckling towards the end. I curl up on the couch and let the tears fall as I sob into my knees. I get a plane ticket for me and pack a bag. I didn't want to interrupt Bryce so i decided to leave a note. 

'Hey Bryce, I have to go to away for a while...a long while. I'm Sorry....so sorry... ~Dylan <3 '

I put the note on the door to his gaming room and rush to Ohm's. I knock and he answers. When he opens the door his eyes widen. "Oh hey Dyl, Whats up?"He asks quietly. "I'm leaving. I might not come back"I say and his eyes widen. "What! Why?!"He exclaims and I sigh before explaining. After I finish I see tears in his eyes. "Okay, I love you sis.."He whispers before hugging me. After that I head to the airport. "Please....Evan be okay I need you.."I whisper as I board my plane. 

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*THIS IS A MINOR EARLY WARNING!*

As soon as I land I head to a hotel, drop my stuff off, and leave for the hospital. It was noon now so I could visit him. I run to the front desk and tears fill my eyes. I know I had to use an excuse so I used the first thing to come to mind. "My boyfriend tried to kill himself while I was in Georgia, Please tell me he's okay"I cry and she sighs. "Name?"She asks. "Evan Fong"I say and she rolls her eyes. "You aren't the first"she says and I break down. "She's not lying"I hear a familiar voice say and I look up to see Mini. "Mini!"I cry and hug him. He wraps his arms around me and bury my head in his chest as the tears flow out of my eyes. "Come with me"He mumbles and we walk to Evan's room. "So boyfriend, huh?"he chuckles and I laugh lightly. "I needed a good excuse"I say and he nods slowly. "He doesn't look too terribly good just a warning"Mini says and opens the door. I gasp when I see how pale he is. I run over to him and grab his hand. "Evan"I whisper as I notice the scars on his arms. "Where's Bryce?"Mini asks and I sigh. "Home...I left..without him knowing..I know he wouldn't have wanted to come...It's not so close to home and we are always moving around..I just.."I trail off and Mini nods understanding what I meant. "I just felt like I needed to be here..I love Bryce I really do but...I can't lose Evan...Friends come first right?"I whisper and Mini looks at me with a smirk. "Are you sure you don't have feelings for Evan?"he asks and I stay silent. I don't like him..do I? Not that it would matter anyways, he likes Del not me. I hear Mini chuckle and he kisses the top of my head. "I'm going to go grab us some food, alright?"He says quietly and I nod as he leaves. I trace the scars on Evan's arms with a frown on my face. "Could I have stopped this?"I whisper quietly. Something I didn't expect though was an answer. "No baby girl you couldn't"I hear Evan's sweet voice ring through my ears. I look at his face to see a small smile forming on it and his eyes cracked open. "Evan!"I squeal and wrap my arms around him. I hear him groan in pain so I loosen my grip slightly. "Hey beautiful"He whispers and wraps his arms around me. "I heard you and Mini talking"He says and I freeze. I feel my heart speed up and I avoid eye contact with him. I feel his hand gently grab my face and make me look at him. "I do like Del, you know? but I've liked you longer and so much more..That's why I didn't think i deserved someone like you..because I couldn't have you. There is no one like you"he whispers and I feel tears gather in my eyes. Before I can say anything my phone rings. It was Bryce. I sigh and answer it, motioning for Evan to be quiet and wait a second. "DYLAN! Where are you"I hear a very worried Bryce exclaim. "I can't tell you..just know I'm fine...but Bryce"I sigh and I hear him take in a sharp breath. "Yea?"he whispers and I frown. "I'm not coming back..I think we should..take a break..or well just...break up"I say quietly and I hear silence as a response. That's when I hear him break down. "I'm Sorry..Talk to Ohm...he will explain"I whisper before hanging up. As soon as I do Evan pulls me into the bed and hugs me. I lay next to him and wait for a certain phone call. Then it comes. "Dylan...Where are you?"I hear an upset Delirious ask. "Are you with anyone right now?"I ask and he says a quick no. "California..with Evan and Mini"I say and Evan kisses my forehead. "Why?"He asks and I sigh quietly. "Evan...h-he.."I couldn't finish I got choked up so Evan took the phone. "I almost died...I tried to kill myself last night...it was on the news..I..I'm sorry"Evans says tears filling his eyes. As the tears fall down his face I wipe them. He continues to talk to Del until Mini gets back. He tells him bye and hands the phone back to me. "He said he loves you and to tell you to be safe and call if you need anything"he says and I nod. I see Mini had bags of food and Starbucks and I grab a cup from him.  I wasn't hungry anymore. "So what I was saying before they called..."Evan trails off and I chuckle lightly. I press my lips against his cheek and his cheeks turn pink. After a few hours of us all chatting the day away visiting hours end. "I'm gonna head to my hotel, I'll be back tomorrow"I smile and kiss both the boys on the cheek. "Okay, See you tomorrow"Evan says and Mini waves. I head to my hotel and tears brim my eyes. 

*HERE IS ANOTHER WARNING! A BIGGER ONE! THIS PART INVOLVES SELF-HARM!*

When I get to my room I head to the bathroom and lock the door. That's when I completely break down. I cry to myself for hours before I notice the razor in the shower. I take the blade out of it and frown. Should I? I mean Evan did it...I didn't stop him...or help him..maybe...maybe I deserve it. Just this once...right? I press the blade against my arm and slice my skin. I watch as the blood runs out of my arm and I cut my arm again. and again. and again. and again. and again. After I finish what I'm doing I wash up in the shower. Though I felt dizzy I didn't care. I grab a big shirt that was Ohm's and crawl into to bed after I change. I hope Evan's okay. I can't lose him. I know what I just did was just an in the moment thing...I know I shouldn't have...God I hope the guys don't notice. 

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Okay, I know this was eventful buuuuttt. Anyways, The next chapter probably won't have Bryce in it but the one after that will! The next chapter will be more about her in California without Bryce. I will probably go into detail about the Evan situation too in the next chapter. Okay well, I hope you all enjoyed! Tell me what you guys thought! Comment, Vote, Share, etc. BYYYYYYYYEEEEE^-^