DaveKat (Sadstuck)

Chapter 3

(trigger warnings: dysphoria, self harm, self loathing, suicidal thoughts.
You have been warned.)

Be Dave==>

It was lunch now, I had skipped my morning classes and just hid in the bathrooms, the girls of course because that's what I fucking am.  Yay. I met up with Rose and she took me to the table she usually sat at.  Her girlfriend was there, along with her twin brothers, her sister and, oh hey, that's Karkat.  I sat next to her and stayed quiet looking up when I heard Rose's brothers, Dirk and Hal, ask me something.  I looked at them confused and didn't respond.  Hal rolled his eyes and shook his head, "Nevermind, forget it Dave.", well that made me feel all warm and fuzzy.  Thanks. Note the strong sarcasm.  Dirk elbowed him gently, "Hey, be nicer he didn't do shit to you, man.  Don't worry about it Dave, it's cool.", I kinda frowned and looked down at myself, I slowly pulled up my sleeves and looked at the deep scars and cuts.  I gently pressed on a few new ones and it made me feel better.  I heard a gasp from Kanaya and yanked down my sleeve looking up.  Kanaya was staring at a girl across the cafeteria, "Good Lord, What The Is She Wearing??", she sounded horrified and I followed her stare.  Damn, none of that matched, I wasn't a fashionista but I know when shit doesn't look good together.  I continued to press on my cuts and bruises through my clothing, noticing I was starting to calm down. Rose must have noticed because she asked if I was okay, I nodded and hugged myself, I heard a scream and flinched not expecting it.  I looked up and saw John running away from a group of girls laughing.  "Oh god, John what did you do.." I mumbled and stood up starting to walk over signing at him quickly.  He stopped and looked at me clearly confused.  "Woah woah woah, too fast slow down." I took a deep sigh and repeated my self but slower so he could understand.  He laughed and smiled finally getting it, he's been learning ASL so we can exchange conventions more effectively.  "Cream pie into a girl's face, she had just finished her make-up too.", I heard a gasp from Rose, Roxy and Kanaya and quietly laughed barely smiling. 'Nice one Eggdork.'  He beamed proudly and heard Jade calling him, "I gotta go, see ya' later Dave!",  he jogged off and I sat back down, I heard someone clear their throat and looked up seeing Karkat.

Be Karkat==>

I looked at Dave and glanced at everyone before asking, "Do you actually hang out with that fuckwitt?",  Dave tensed a bit and stared down at the table starting to press on his arms more, what the hell was he doing?  Rose grabbed his hand in a sisterly manner and looked at me.  "Yes, Karkat, he is friends with John, and has been since the 3rd grade.", she glared daggers at me and I shifted in my seat. "It was just a fucking question, Rose, I don't really give a shit.", Dave was staring to glance around and he held himself. Seriously what the hell is up with him? He seemed fucking fine when I had seen him the other day. Whatever, I don't fucking care. Rose frowned and started to rub his back. I slightly rolled my eyes and sighed before hearing Terezi's laugh. She was walking over with Sollux, oh fuck me, what do they want? "Hey Karklez, whatcha' up to?", Terezi laughed and smiled wide showing her cherry red braces.  I shrugged slightly.  "Nothing really.  Skipping lunch because it looks like something you'd feed to a pig.", she laughed and smiled, "Do you want my lunch? My mom over packed and I already ate.", I shook my head and then mentally slapped my self because she's blind, nice one dumbass. "No, I'm good..", Terezi shrugged and asked if she could sit with me, I shooted over and helped her sit, I rested my elbows on the table and they lazily crossed my chest, she linked her arm with mine and smiled. I lightly blushed but let her, I used to have a crush on Terezi and I obviously still care about her, but she said we were better off as just friends and I respected that. Terezi started talking to Kanaya and I pulled out my phone going onto social media.

Be Dave==>

I watched a girl sit next to Karkat, I recognized her, she was in a few of my classes but I never really made it a priority to know her name.  I think it started with a 'T' but it was really unique so I couldn't just guess it.  I softly sighed and noticed Rose had stooped rubbing my back, her finger was tracing my ace bandages and I tenced slightly.  I looked at her and she frowned at me.  I glanced down and slightly hugged myself. I felt like people were staring at me and I started getting a little anxious.  I started rubbing my arms hoping it would comfort me but it really just made it a little worse, fuck I was having a sensory overload, my body was tingly and the slightest touches felt like fire.  I took a few deep breaths and tried to relax but to no avail.  I started to shake and tremble while looking around, my eyes making plain colors seem like neon.  Then my head started to pulse and every noise was painful.  I stood up and left all my stuff before running to the nearest bathroom to compose myself.  I locked myself in a stall and started tearing up, taking off my shades I wiped my eyes and sniffled.  Stop it, boys don't cry, boys never cry.  But I'm not a boy, I'm a girl, and that's all I'll ever be, a frail, fragile, delicate chick.  I'm so pathetic, god I hate myself so much, I really should just kill myself seeing I don't have a purpose other than a sex toy and punching bag. 

Be Karkat==>

The hell happened to Dave?  He just up and left.  Fuck, is he okay?

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