DaveKat (Sadstuck)

Chapter 4

(trigger warnings; bulimia, self harm, suicidal thoughts, blood, sensory overload and/or panic attack.  You have been warned.)

Be Karkat==>

The hell happened to Dave?  He just up and left.  Fuck, is he okay? I looked up at the direction that Rose was now heading presumably following him. I was confused and a bit concerned but I barely knew the guy so I wasn't freaking out. He didn't look to great. My thoughts were interrupted when I heard someone yelling. What the fuck is happening? I space out for two motherfucking seconds and all hell breaks loose. I look at Terezi who was laughing at something that Vriska had done to Tavros, so he was the one yelling. Aradia was trying to get her to leave him alone but Vriska was ignoring her. I would step in but I don't care, unless it actually gets physical, I'm not gonna mess with Megido. She knew fucking martial arts and as I did know taiquando, like hell I was going to fight her, she's so much stronger than she looks. It's kinda scary. My thoughts are once again interrupted by Kanaya calmly asking me something. "Wait what? I didn't hear you.", she softly sighed and repeated herself, "I Am Going To Go Assist Tavros, Could You Please Watch My Things?", I nodded as she stood and walked over.  Roxy was passed out, she had just been bubbly and awake a second ago, what happened?  I know for a fucking fact it wasn't alcohol, she quit like two years ago.  Wait, why do I care?  She's just tired, I felt something on my arm shift and looked to my left setting Terezi had stood up and was walking over to Vriska, nothing good will happen from that, what are they planning?  Why was it so damn loud all the time, can't everyone just calm down and sit still for a second?  The next thing I knew Nepeta was talking to me about something she had made up for her shipping journal.  I wasn't really listening, how could I?  Terezi and Vriska were cackling like there was no tomorrow, Kanaya was helping Tavros who was basically on the verge of tears, Nepeta was ranting about 'quadrants' or something, what ever the hell that was.  And now it looks like Gamzee is offering me a gross pie.  That's it, I'm so done.  I turned to Nepeta and looked at her.  "Nepeta, I honestly don't give a shit right now.",  I took Gamzee's pie and threw it at Vriska and yelled at her to shut the fuck up.  She snickered at my pathetic throw and Gamzee wandered over to Tavros while Kanaya walked back over to me.  I turned back to Nepeta, "What do you want?", she handed me her green and blue cat journal before flipping to a page. I read them quietly and arched an eyebrow.  "Why did you make this?  It hardly makes any damn sense." She started to explain and I listened.  "Okah well if the two of them hate eachother so fucking much why don't they just avoid eachother?", she giggled and give me a suggestive look. I groan and rest my head against the table, Kanaya starts rubbing my back and I sigh.  I am completely and utterly exhausted.

Meanwhile, Be Dave==>

Tears were streaming down my face and I was hunched over a toilet trying to make myself puke but it wasn't working.  I hadn't eaten anything for breakfast and I wasn't eating at lunch.  I continued gagging over the toilet until I felt a hand on my back, I turned my head to see Rose with a look of worry.  I slightly shook and hiccupped through my tears.  Everything burned, it was too loud and it smelled like pure bleach in here.  Bleach.  Hey, I can drink that and it will kill me.  I glanced around and glared finding nothing.  I hate this fucking school for not letting me just kill myself, I hated myself and so did everyone else, the only real friends I had were John, Jade and Rose.  I looked at Rose and she pulled my into a tight hug, I tried to push her away but everything hurt.  I wanted to go home, to Bro, let him kill me, Rose please.  I hadn't realized I had been talking until Rose snapped at me.  "David, stop it! I am not going to let you die and I am absolutely not letting you go home if your so called 'Brother' is going to hurt you! I care about you very much, so does John and Jade. I understand you're upset but you need to calm down and tell me what's wrong so I can help you!", I stared at her in disbelief, the tone and volume of her voice was scaring me and I don't even know what she said, I just knew she was pissed, or at least mad.  I started to tremble and shake, it must've been noticeable since Rose calmed down and hugged me again.  Everything is awful, I hate everything and myself.  I let Rose hug me and I hid my face in her shoulder.  It took me a while to calm down but when I did the bell rang for our next class period.  I walked out with Rose and we grabbed our stuff.  Kanaya and Karkat were waiting to go to class with Rose while I retreated back to the bathroom.  I just wanted to listen to music and be left alone.  Maybe sleep if I could, but them all I'd get would be nightmares.  I sighed and locked myself in a stall before sitting against the wall and pulling up my sleeves too see my cuts.  They were starting to heal and scab over, I gently ran my fingers over my left wrist and paused before starting to pick at them.  I started bleeding but I didn't care, if I was lucky I'd bleed out onto the floor and die.

Be Rose==>

I frowned watching Dave walk back to the bathroom, god I hope he doesn't do anything to hurt himself.  I'm so worried about it and I'm not sure what to do.  I've done hours of research and tried different methods with him but nothing seems to be helping.  He had said something about his older brother hurting or killing him and that made me worrying even worse.  I don't want to have to get the CPS but it's the only option left at this point.  I don't think Dave will like this idea in the slightest but I just want to help him.  I know he cuts and I know he wraps his chest, he's starving himself but all my attempts do far have failed.  Perhaps I should tell John or Kanaya, but it is not my secret, it's Dave's.  I sighed as Kanaya lovingly grabbed my hand.  "Rose, You Look Bothered By Something, What Is Wrong My Love?", she looked at me with pure concern lacing her features.  I quietly sighed and slightly smiled.  "It's nothing my darling, I haven't been sleeping very well lately, I've just been over thinking.", I could tell she knew I was lying but she also knew to not pry.  "Very Well, Perhaps You Would Like To Come Over Later? We Can Chat And Relax Together If You'd Like, My Dear.", she smiled kindly at me and I slightly smiled back slowly nodding.  "That sounds lovely, Kanaya.  I would love to come over.", we held hands and walked to class but my mind kept wandering to Dave.  I hope he's okay.

(( ta-da, I hope you all enjoy this, I'm sorry about spaced out updates.  I'm going through some stuff and I over all just feel really depressed and sick.  Hopefully this chapter is good and not like how I'm feeling, It's really hard to come up with inspiration for things.  Thank you for all the veiws this story has!  It motivates me so much.  And I know, kinda lame, but could you guys possibly just peek at my other story? I might update it more often since it is literally my OTP and the two of them make me feel better.  If you could just read it or maybe send it to someone else who would like it, that would make me over the fucking moon.  Sorry for the rant and slow updates. Thanks again for reading and all the veiws.  Really fucking appreciate it.
-Author-Kun ))