Nuranize

Chapter 18: Ray.

Her POV

Fury, that was what I went back inside with.
Fury, the only thing that prevented me from crying.
Fury, the strings the devil used to control me; I was a mere puppet.

I was grunting, panting and swearing under each breath.
How could Hikmah do this to me?

I know it is bad, but I enjoyed the fury that brewed inside me, it gave me strength. And strength was what I thought I needed the most at that instance.

"Nura!" Ya Najib shouted as he came out of the kitchen.
I managed to look at him, it was just one look but it held so much meaning. He was smart enough to grasp the message I was sending through, 'stay away!'.

I ascended the staircase gritting my teeth and stumping my feet. Various thoughts were being processed in my mind. I reached for my face and roughly cleaning off the despicable beauty product with my abaya. Not only did I smudge everything up, I also managed to leave a nasty stain on my abaya, but I didn't care.

A heartbeat later I was at staring at my bedroom door. I wanted to barge in and make everyone feel as wronged as myself but for a second I was hesitant. That hesistancy made me halt at the doorstep.

'Calm down. Don't do this.' A tiny meek voice said.
However it was one voice out of a million, and 999,999 others were promoting my madness.
'Don't you dare let them do this to you!'
'They all betrayed you!'
'You will not be forced into anything!'
Thus I was hesitant only for a second.
I flung the door open and dived into the room looking at all three of them accusingly.

"I can explain!" Hikmah said instantly as she rose from the bed.
I looked at her with my nose flared, searching for words that suited her role in everything.

"How could you?" I shouted.
Amal and Yasmin rose and tried calming me down.
"Shut up! You all knew and you all made a fool out of me! I considered you all to be my friends but God was I wrong." I hissed.
Yasmin and Hikmah became limp when I said that.
"Nura! What has gotten into you?" Amal shouted angrily.
"Shut up! Amal just shut up!" I shouted silencing her.
"Hikmah why?"
"Nura it isn't as you think." She tried to explain.
"Don't you dare put up that act." I spat. I then began to laugh hysterically. "God was I a fool. I trusted you so much that I didn't see the signs."
"Nura just hear her out." Yasmin said quietly.
"And what would that change? All that trust for nothing! Tell me, how would listening to details on how she has hurt me help me?"
"I didn't know." Hikmah spoke.
"Don't play a fool! You knew." I said pointing an accusing finger at her.
"Nura just shut up for a second! Ya Allah!" Amal spat.
I became angrier.
'How dare she raise her voice at me? Upon all that they did to me she has the guts to do that.'
Suddenly the tears that were suppose to be dormant started making way for a waterfall and I refused to let them or anyone else see me cry that night. Thus, I rushed to the door and flung it open.
"Leave my room." I simply uttered.
They were flabbergasted; they looked at me, the door and at each other.
"You can't be serious." Amal said with a chuckle.
I stared at Amal angrily and remained mute, still standing by the door.
"Nura..." Hikmah said with so much sadness. I felt a pang in my chest when she did, I disliked being the cause of that tone but what had to be done, had to be done. I refused to look at her.
Yasmin couldn't handle the tension anymore, so with her head bowed she walked slowly out of my room. Again I felt that pang but I wanted solitude, I needed solitude.
Amal did not bow her head however, after failing in persuading me or better yet scolding me to my senses, she headed towards the door with a gruff. She reached the door and stared at me with so many emotions.
"Call me when you are in your senses." She said with her tone sympathetic.
She walked away quickly.
Lastly was Hikmah. She was obviously shocked, however at that point in time I did not know what shocked her.
"Nura." She said hoarsely.
I couldn't handle it anymore, I looked at her and my heart crumbled into a thousand pieces. She looked so hurt and I was responsible.
I wanted to apologize and hug the hurt out of her but the face she made was similar to the one he had made. This little revelation had my fury-meter gauge on full. I bit my lower lip just to feel something other than what my heart was feeling.