Amethyst

Chapter 7

Zane’s POV

I hadn’t seen Lea at college the day before, not that it would have mattered if she had been there; I couldn’t have spoken to her anyway.  Especially with her brothers even more on guard than ever after last night. 

I knew that my head should have been swimming with questions about what she could have been and what I had seen that night but it just wasn’t.  The only thoughts in my head were how I had let her down. Really what I had seen hadn’t frightened me, if it had then surely I would have ran away when I saw it, what frightened me was something else entirely.  In just a few short days my whole world had been turned upside down by one girl and it didn’t seem wrong, it felt like it was supposed to be this way.  That was what frightened me, the certainty of what was happening.

When her family spoke of the connection it was as if Lea and I were predestined and something inside me quaked with fear.  Deep inside I knew that I couldn’t avoid it forever but I also felt like my world was about to change in a big way and part of me just want a few more minutes of being blissfully ignorant.  But my selfish desires had hurt the one person that I just seemed to click with.  Because of my actions I didn’t think I would ever get the chance to make things right again or learn what it was that was between me and Lea.

I just wanted to hide away from the world, lock myself in my room and never come out.  Luckily because it was Saturday, I could do that, at least for the next two days.  I sat in my bed with the curtains closed and my duvet over me like a shield to block out the world.  I curled up into a ball and just lay there, I didn’t know how long I had been there for, I also didn’t really care; I just wanted to lay there.

There was a knock on my bedroom door, I ignored it at first but after the second or third, I decided I should just open it and send my mum away, content to wallow in my misery.  I sulked over, still wrapped in my duvet, I opened the door “Zane, there is someone at the door for you."  Her voice was soft, kind of like the way she talks to me when I’m not well. 

“I don’t want to talk to anyone right now.”  I mumbled as I started to walk back to my bed.

“She said it was urgent, something about an English project."  I snapped my head around; I quickly past my mum and dashed down stairs to the front door.  Sure enough she was stood there, her eyes as bright as her smile, but her hair was different, it was curling at the ends and one side clipped back.  She was wearing a denim skirt that was frayed and the edge, brown suede boots that came up to her knee and a bright red coat with the hood had a faux fur trim. She looked as if she must have spent hours getting ready but I’m sure it took her minutes.

“Hi Zane."  Her smile was infectious and I smiled back at her.

“H…Hi Lea."  She took a deep breath.

“Can we talk? If this is a bad time I can come back.”  She had probably assumed I had just got out of bed from my dishevelled state.

“No no, we can talk now.  Just let me get my coat.”  I turned around and grabbed my leather jacket off the coat rack and was quickly out the door.  At first we were silent, both not knowing what to say to each other but it wasn’t exactly an uncomfortable silence it was like we were just waiting for the right time to talk.

We walked to the park and sat on the deserted swing set.  Finally I was the one who broke the silence.

“I didn’t think you would ever want to talk to me again.”

 “I could never feel like that.  If anything I feel awful that I pushed you into that situation.”  She exclaimed.

“That wasn’t your fault, that was me being selfish and I’ve been kicking myself for it ever since.”  I said in her defence, eager to make sure she didn’t think what happened was at all her fault. “I still don’t understand why you came to see me though.”