Connect The Stars

10. I Don't know

Dipper pov

"EEK! Thanks for taking me to Bill! I'm excited!" Mable screamed as she jumped up and down as she got out of the car and stood in front of a bug house with music and lights blaring from it. Many people stood in front of the house talking or making out with their lovers. Laughs and smiles where all I could see. However my mind was filled with fear and distress. I hated parties, Drinking, drugs, talking, music, and just way to many people! Bill walk over and patted my back "Thanks Pinetree for coming! I fell much better knowing your here." Bill said in a reassuring voice. My heart began to beat quickly. I nodded and looked away. I was happy knowing I made Bill conferrable.

I smiled a bit till I was startled by Bill starting to drag me towards the house. "Ya! Let's go party!" Bill screamed as we approached the house. The door was wide open allowing anyone Access to the home. My heart started pounding seeing to many people. Mable had already found some girl to talk to outside, so I wasn't worried about her. Bill let go of me and walked inside, I hesitantly followed behind.

As I looked around many people had red cups in their hands. I saw maybe four people making out with each other. However I can't say I didn't heard moans from the hallway closet. My face grew with disgust seeing how many teens spent there free time. Bill Laughed as he looked at me "Hey, you okay?" He half yelled because of how load the music and people talking was. I nodded in response and continued to follow him to what I would assume was the kitchen. Red cups were almost set everywhere with beer bottles and gallons of beer spilled over and on the ground. Bill grabbed a cup and got a jug that was standing up straight and pored the beer into it. "Are you to young!?" I asked, not shouting now because it wasn't was loud in here, He chuckled "Ya but I Don't give a fuck" He said while taking a sip. He put the cup in my face and asked "Want some?" I quickly declined and stepped back. He frowned and shrugged and continued to chugged down the whole cup. He cheered and got another cup. "Hey Pinetree I'll be back! I'm going to go spend time with the host if that's okay" Bill said in a cheerful voice. At first I was kinda scared of him leaving but I nodded in response. He smile and patted my shoulder and took off.

There I was in a place full of people alone... I felt like I was going to be sick. I looked around for escape rout. But to no succeed there were none. I began to walk making sure not to touch anyone. I looked for a bathroom just to have some alone time. I spotted a door with the words "Bathroom" on a piece of wood hanging on the door. I walked over and Tried to open it. Locked, Well shit. I sighed heavily and looked around. Maybe I should just leave.. Tho I didn't want to make Bill sad.

Then I thought. How was I going to find Bill after he talk to the host!? Who even was the host? I thought about going back to the kitchen and waiting there. But soon as I tried to walk back I had completely forgotten where it was. I almost felt like having a panic attack but I stayed strong and leaned against the wall. I'll just have to wait for him to find me.

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  Three hours.... Three hours I have still leaned against this wall. Three hours I have still heard the moans, the load music and people talking. For three hours I have been wanting to pass out, throw up then cry. I have been looking at the same spot on the wall for awhile trying to make it seem as if I was somewhere else, For example home. It was Eleven o'clock at night and I was beginning to get tired. Even if I wanted to get home I couldn't because Bill was my ride and I had no idea where I was. He might be having sex or passed out for all that I know

I was kinda pissed how Bill had left me and made me feel like shit for three hours. I have to say this has been the worst day off my life. I had big anxiety of big crowds which I never dared to tell anyone or else they'd think I was a wimp. I would have gone outside for fresh air but it was like fifty degrees outside and I had no idea where an exit was.

I sighed and looked away from the spot I had stared at no stop. I didn't think I'd be able to go to school tomorrow. My mom would probably understand.

I heard a Groggy laugh from behind me. It was high pitched but deep in a way. I Looked behind me to see a yellow haired man slouched up against the wall drunk as fuck. Also know as Bill himself. One part of me wanted to slap him but the other part was super relieved he was here. "I found youb!" Bill shouted and laughed. He walked over and hugged me tightly. I could barley speak from how terrified I was threw the last couple of hours. I tried to get him off of me but he just answered back with a hug tighter then before. I hissed and looked up at him.

He had a smirk on his face "Pinetree have I ever tolth you how cuteb you are" Bill said while getting closer to my face. I could barely make out what he was saying but realized what he meant. I blushed madly and looked away. My emotion started to mix like a tornado. "B-Bill get off me your totally drunk" I finally said. He chuckled "No I'm not! Just only have about five-" He stopped for a second and put his finger on his chin "hundred cups" He laughed and snorted. I groaned and tried to push him away.  Soon I felt his hand run down my back and grab my ass. I yelp and madly blushed. W-what! No! I don't like this..! My heart began very fast. I felt butterflies in my stomach and that hand being there in a way felt pleasant.
   I shock my head and I soon realized I was on the verge of tears. He got closer to my lips and smirk "Dipper I find you very attractive. I want you so badly right now~" He said in a lustful tone. A shiver ran down my spine as I stared into his eyes. Wants me now! Finds me attractive!? Does Bill want to fuck me! The thought of it didn't faze me that much. But I took my attention back at the task at hand.

Bills lips got closer to mine. I started to realize what he was doing and tried to escape. This was my first kiss and I didn't want it to be with a drunk! I would be okay with it being Bill howeve- My eyes widened at my own thoughts. Do I like Bill?

Soon the gap between are lips closed and Bill kissed me deeply. I Shut my eyes tightly and I cringed. Soon I stared to relax. My heart started to slow down. It felt nice in a way, almost like my lips were meant to be there. Soon I started to kissed back, I hated myself for doing it. Bill pulled me closer, I was starting to run out of air which made me stop. My eyes widened making me forget how nice the moment felt. I didn't want to do this! Bill was drunk, I was just being used! I quickly pushed him off as hard as I could. He stumbled back but caught his balance and looked at me.

I began to shake, My mind was filled with fear as tears began to rush out of my eyes. I needed to leave now. I quickly ran away trying to look for an exit. Tears still escaped my eyes as I tried to cover them from anyone seeing my face. Bill kissed me... He was drunk... That was my first kiss. My heart began to speed up again. And now I don't know whats wrong with me! Why did I like it! But I hated it! Thinking these thing just made me more depressed making me start to sob only leading to more tears.

I looked over to see a door wide open leading to the outside world. My eyes widened as I began to run for it. I made sure not to hit anyone on the way out.

As I reached outside I started to go into a panic attack. The cold air rushed around me, I didn't know what to do! I had no way home and it was freezing. My mind came to a thought about my phone. I quickly ran away from the house and a couple houses down. I pulled out his phone quickly and went into his contacts. I clicked my moms contacts and called her. I put his phone up to my ear and tried to calm down. However my quick breaths wouldn't stop. "Hello?" A sweet voice came in form the other end of the call. My panic attack must been so loud that it caught her attention. "Oh no! Honey! Where are you. I'll come pick you up" My mom shouted through the phone knowing I was having a panic attack. The only words I could choke out was "I d-don't know.."

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