Connect The Stars

27. Expect

Sorry I thought this chapter would be out by this last week however I had promotion and promotion parties and then I worked on it on Friday and then over th weekend I had to go camping and then I went to go see my girlfriend who I haven't seen in a month and a half so I'm sorry. Enjoy  

Dipper's pov

   I paced around my room as my hand ran across my forehead trying to push off the sweat. I was nervous, very nervous. Every minute just came closer and closer to that time. I couldn't back out of this one. Well I could, however I needed to do this. I couldn't hold it back anymore. I needed to show who I really was. Who I am. With A sigh I laid on my bed and closed my eyes. I tried to calm myself. Listen to the silence of my room as I heard the slightest sound of ticks for the clock above my door. It just gave me signals that the time was only going to come.          
   However, I needed to collect myself, Calm myself. Bill is coming over tonight for dinner. It'll be a normal night. . . Besides the few sentences. That might get me kick out. . . or hated . . . Or- Lets not think of that stuff! Only think good thing. Happy things. Ya.
   "Dipper!" Mable slammed my door open with a long scream of my name.
I slightly jumped and looked back at her.
   "H-hey, Mabel. What's up" I put my hands in my pocket trying to wipe the sweat off my hands while glancing off to the side a bit.
   "Bill is here! I didn't know you invited him over. You should tell me next time! I bake him a apple pie!" Mabel crosses her arms a bit mad at me.
   "I'm sorry. . ! I'll inform you next time, Promise" I said as I began to walk out of my room passed Mabel.
   "You seem on edge what's wrong?" Mabel asked while walking next to me.
I froze in my tracks and looked at her quickly.
   "Who? Me! On edge, why would I be on edge there is no way I'd be on edge!" I said as with every word my voice got higher, I raced down stairs to my living room to see Bill Sipping on a mug as he sat and Laughed with my mother.
   "Well, you are a very pretty women for your age. How old are you again?" Bill Smiled trying to act like a gentle man.
   "Oh Much older then you think," My mother laugh.
The seen made me cringe slight as my fist clenched. My eye slightly twitched.
"Well you don't look a day over twenty~" Bill chuckled as he glanced over to the side a bit and noticed my tense body in the corner of his eye.
He turn to me and smiled innocently.
   "Hey Dip~ Sorry I was just having a small talk with your beautiful mother" Bill said as he set his mug on a coaster that laid on are coffee table. He stood up and quickly walked over while putting his arm around me. "Let's go catch up!" Bill smiled at me as I looked up at him.
Bill dragged me up to my room while shutting to door and locking it. I gulped, Why was he locking the door? He looked over to me and smirk. I felt a shiver goes up my spine as he walked toward me. I was nervous so I took some steps back before I hit my wall and my eyes widened a bit as Bill out his hand on each side of me as if he was trapping me in and wouldn't allow me to move. He inched toward me and took a second looking into my brown eyes before kissing me lightly. I kissed him back after finding the rhythm. He moved himself closer until are chest almost touch. Soon he pullback and kissed my pale cheek,and he started to kiss down. My eyes squeezed shut as I pull my head up trying to move away however I think I was just giving him more room.
   "So~ what's the plan" Bill backed away from my neck and smiled up at me.
I instantly became flustered and looked away.
   "Jerk. . ." I stated quietly, Bill only chuckled.
   "Sorry~ I just haven't seen you in forever!" Bill hugged me as I sighed and started to pet his soft blond hair.
   "Whatever," I stated before pushing back a bit and pecking him before getting out of his arms and walking toward my desk.
Bill looked over we with sparkles in my eyes. I wonder what's running through his head right now. . .
   "Okay so the plan is we'll do it at dinner but that's about all I can think of. . ." I said as my voice got more quiet. Bill came up and rubbed my back
   "Hey I believe in you. But if you really don't want to do this you don't have to force yourself." Bill reassured me as he wrapped his arms around my waist and rested on my back.

   Why was he so nice and caring? Did I do anything to deserve this? I'm just some nerd who talks to no one. How can someone amazing as Bill love me?
   I looked back at Bill as he looked up at me. We quickly fell into a calm loving sense. He pulled himself up a bit and I turn my head more toward him before are lips connected. I could feel the slight smile on his lips.

   It was time. My family, Bill and I sat around the table as we dug into are food. We talked for a bit about different topics. Like where would I go to college and where would I live. Some jokes came around here, most of them made by Bill. It came close to are dinner and I knew it was time, I needed to speak my mind. Stand up for myself. Everything will. . . Be okay.
I took some deep breath as I relaxed m body, as I thought I was ready.
   "Hey um I have something to say if no one mind the attention." I stated as I looked down at my lap. I could feel the eyes of my family and Bill looking at me.
   "What is it sweetie?" My mother asked as she wiped her hand with her napkin and set his fork down.
   I looked up at Mabel to see her eyes held a bit of worry. I smiled slightly however I started to slightly shake knowing at any moment those eyes wouldn't hold worry . . . But hate. Soon I felt someone grab my hand and squeeze it. Bill rubbed his thumb across my hand trying to calm me down. Soon I calmed myself.
   "Uh. . . Well I know it's a weird time to say this but I thought I should just get it out. . . " I started since I didn't just wanted to shout it out. I saw everyone eyes on me which made me scared but the warmth of Bill's hand made me calm. I sighed and looked up at them. "I'm- Gay. . . A-And Bill is My B-Boyfriend. . ." I manged to say out in a loud voice, I looked down at my lap. I suddenly felt Bill squeeze my hand tighter. Maybe he was't trying to calm me. But himself.
I heard the quick movement of a chair being pushed. I looked up to see Mabel standing out of her chair with wide eyes.
   "Wait really?!" Mabel had a slight smile on her face, was she happy?
   "Ah yah. . . " Without even noticing she came over and hugged me tightly.
   "Omg Dip! I'm so proud of you!" Mabel giggled and ruffled Bills hair.
   I was slightly revealed when I knew Mabel was happy. However I looked up to my parent which both were completely different expressions.
   "That's great honey. Remember we are always here for you. . . Right honey?" My mother looked over at my dad who had his hand over his forehead while looking down. He cleared his thoat and looked up a bit
   "Ah yes, Of course-" My dad said tho he wasn't very convincing. I don't think he agreed with my life choice. Well it's not a choice but you know what I mean.
  All though this reaction from my father wasn't the best. Tonight turned out better then expected.