Celebration's[✓].

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Beakhyun & Ji yeon were skating together hand in hand .. A pure smile lit both their faces bright 

I kept watching them from outside the glass 

At the moment the right thing to do is feel happy for my bestie

But then the truth is that I didn't feel the happiness  ... 

Deep inside my heart  i felt strange .. A sort of envy ..

 Not because i had a crush on Beakhyun  

Then envy that's prevailing in my heart is something different .. I just don't have exact words to portray my feeling 

To sum up my heart I would say .. 

The envy that's killing me inside is because of LOVE 

 I always wanted to fall in love .. I just wanted to know how it feels to love & being loved .. As far as i know it's a magical feeling ..  Making someone feel so special .. Showing affection , caring , supporting , sacrificing for each other .. Little arguments & fights .. Then missing each other .. Asking sorry's etc ... 

I've seen a lot of couples all around the places i go .. Neighbourhood , School , Malls etc ..Every-time i see them i feel a sense of envy not because they are Happy & enjoying ... Just because so many years passed by there is not even ONE person in this Earth who has fallen in love for me .. Am i so worthless ?? This is a feeling that lurked my heart from a long time 

Now Ji yeon has got someone who loves her ... That too it's Byun Beakhyun 

 She's really lucky .. 

As for Me .. I'm a tomato who is going to be Single all the time 

Phewwww 

Millions of thought circled my mind with a mixture of emotions: Disappointment , Inferiority complex , Envy , Frustration etc ... 

"Stop being sad  .. They are our friends .." I heard Sehun's voice beside me 

I came out of my thought & looked at him "What do you mean ??" 

"They are meant to be together .. And You .. You'll find someone else .. Just wait for some more time .."  He claimed 

"Sehun ..!!! What do you think of me ?? Am I so cheap ..???" I argued 

"Stop lying .. It's seen all over your face .." Sehun said 

That moment i shut my mouth & touched my face ..  

Arrghhh .. 

I just don't know how to stop portraying my feelings through my face ...  

Sehun kept looking at me expecting an answer 

But then I couldn't look at his face. Since he has already figured out the truth I couldn't stand in the place anymore 

I act like being offended & turn away from him. I started walking somewhere without having any idea .. I just went along with my footstep's wherever it's heading to 

Sehun called out my name loud from the back 

Oh my .... !!! Guess he's is following me .. 

What do i do .. 

What's with him ..?? Why is he doing all these stuff's .. ??

If he's so good at reading my face then don't he know that I'm embarrassed right now. Why don't he give me some personal space ???

He kept calling my name loud repeatedly 

Arrghhh .. What will people think if they look at us ... They may mistake us as something else ..