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Eunha's POV

"So you are against kissing...!!" I concluded after listening to Jiyeon's story for the past 30 minutes 

"Absolutely not !" she debated

"Then what's the problem? I remember you talking to me & Oppa about having feelings for Sunbae" I said

"That's right. I like Baekhyun .." she paused

"Hey don't you understand..." she spat out

"Oh dear ! I'm not in a state to think. My brain is currently clogged" I explained her my state

"Look. I'm not against kissing.But the thing is you know we are not official yet" she said confusing me even more

"Jiyeon why don't you use some simple words" I retorted

"I don't know if he likes me or not. He hasn't even properly confessed anything ! And I can't take his feelings for granted, as I wish. Who knows what is in his heart !!!" she said

'You dumbhead ! Isn't it pretty obvious that he likes you'

'He had feelings for you even before you know who He is'

"And in such a state where our relationship is meaningless how can I let him to kiss me ? What will that kiss mean ? Just desire or lust but not love ! That's something what I don't appreciate" she said frustrated  

"Jagi .. Just don't complicate things ! Who said your relationship is meaningless ? You guys are friends right" I badly wanted to convince her and end this conversation since I have many things lined up in my mind to share with her

"Yeah we are JUST friends ! Friends share everything that's agreed ! But not a kiss .." she let out her point

"Arassoh ! You did the good thing" I finally gave up & she cleared her throat

"Now listen to me .. I've got heaps to say" I began

"Yeah .. Go on" she said

"Jiyeon .. Jiyeon !!! Come here & help me with these chores. The guests will be arriving here soon" I could hear her moms voice on the line

"Mian jagi ! I've got to hang up ! You heard my mom right" she said in an apologetic tone

"Yeah yeah whatever !!" I rolled my eyes

"Jeongmal Mian" she said & hung up

I threw the phone on the bed & sighed

'What an ill-fate !!! All these time she was always there beside me but I never dared to share anything ! But now when I finally wanted to open up she is not available' I frowned at that thought & lied down in my bed. I kept rolling lazily in the bed like a worm which crawls on a muddy floor. I sat up & took my diary 

This is my personal stress reliever. I scribbled all my thoughts & wrote down all the incidents of the day. But yet I didn't feel contended, the moment I think about Sehun I just go crazy out of anger . I badly had the urge to kill him. He was already dead inside my head right now for n-number of time & also I attended his funeral in my imagination

I wanted to write further but I know the diary wont suffice to compress my emotions. So I kept the pen aside & flipped the pages behind so that I could read some good moments in my life (If I had any) & recharge my soul

I kept turning the pages until I found this one in which I wrote, 

Life is really really boring ... I never ever expected it to be this way ...!!! Something like the "Fun element" is completely missing in my life .. I wonder whether Vampires , werewolves , mermaids ever exist .. If they do ... i wish to meet them .. Atleast then my life will become interesting ...